Life Expectancy: 65 Years
Claud
An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.
She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.
For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,
in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.
Friday, March 04, 2011
Happiness by Association
I will not associate myself with people or things that do not make me happy or fulfilled. Life is so complex and dumbfounding but it all exists upon a single principle and I live my life by that principle.
I no longer want to be associated with trash, lies and betrayal. I don't want any more excuses, malign and false pretenses.
Hysen told me something today that broke my heart at the same time, assured that my decision was the correct one. Underlying all his weakness, at least he knows who his friends are and I am immensely grateful for him telling me. If not, I wouldn't have been so sure.
It might seem a little off-hand and 'unlike Claudia' to let people go. Usually, it's people who let me go. But this issue has been like a poison ivy growing and gnawing inside and the reason is because I cared.
Yes, I cared.
So now, I don't and I'm happy for it. I never thought that being indifferent is a feeling I'll have, given how I need a nose in everyone's business - to check that everyone is doing fine in life. I am going to use this post as a means of closure. I've deleted everything, cleansed my life and I'm looking forward in moving on.
Thanks Chris and Rahman who have been there for me the entire time.
Thanks Hysen once again for the truth.
Thanks XY who have been a great listening ear as always.
Thanks Daniel (seah) who stood behind my decisions and morally supporting me for it - you define the word moral support man.
Thanks Nat for watching out for me and for listening (later)
Thanks Dad for being sensitive to my moods and for the awesome MP3 player that cheered me up the entire week.
Thanks Elga for speaking my point of view…however fleeting the moments since you were busy.
Thanks Jiawen and Yongquan for reminding me that there are still sensible people out there.
I have much to be thankful for, I have friends whom care about me as much or even more than I care about them.
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