Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

i'm getting a new laptop middle of this month...so people, thanks for your patience regarding the photo uploads. I think it's WAAAAY overdue but spoilt comp...*shrugs*

In any case, i never admit that i'm a slave to technology. However, having my iphone hang on me (butter fingers) and my darling macbook keyboard incapicitated, i am forced to admit that fact.

not that it's all bad though, i'm finding alternatives. Reading now occupies most of my free time, so's sleeping...HAHAHA! and i'm busy giving extra lessons to my students who are having exams/prelims/tests left right centre.

so cat's birthday chalet is from 5-7. in the midst of it all, i still have my final theory test and my mum's test results.

on a birthday note (since i'm writing one):
If all my friends knew each other, they would realise that I wrote the same things on their 21st birthday cards. It's not that I ran out of words to write, but rather, I truly want those things for them....=)

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I used to think that being happy was a simple thing. Just do the things you think will make you happy -hanging out with friends, caring for those you love, sharing memories - is all that matters.

However, recently, I start to wonder, if perhaps happiness is not the only aim in life?

Sometimes we have to act upon what is larger than ourselves, to give up our very happiness so that others can be happy. It's altruistic and it's hard to fathom such an act.

I don't suppose being happy means everything, if happiness in life is without meaning. If you have meaning, then you have peace and in peace you find a certain kind of profound happiness through it all.

Was that what the Buddha was trying to preach?

What if my mum has cancer, what if the doctors cannot treat her? Will we still insist upon treatment, do whatever we can to make her live so that my family will be happy? Or do we do what is kind and let her go...mourn her lost for the rest of our lives?

Academic studies, books and newspapers don't tell you the answes to these things...but then again, we never did have a subject called "Life" to take an exam for anyway =)

being happy, is not as straightforward and simple. Sometimes we may need to give being happy temporarily to let someone else be happy...and in hopes that that will make us happy in return.