Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

i sometimes chill at the coincidence of numbers...

21/11/08 is when my mum fell victim to her stroke.
21 was her bed number when she was in the general ward.
My mum went to Renci on my birthday; 16th september.
27 June, the doctors found abnormal blood flow. My mum hasn't had her mensus since June 2009. That day was my dad's birthday
Today, the 2 July, my mum went to KKH and the doctor suspected my mum of cancer, if the test results come back positive for it. We're keeping out fingers crossed.

And then we'll know on 7/7 for sure if it is.

I don't like the number 2 and double dates makes me uneasy. Like 7 July, or 6 June...just creeps me out.

In any case, the point is not that numbers but the check up at KK hospital. I hope it's just a case of menses and nothing else, and that I'm worrying unnecessarily. So I'll try to live my days through and hope for the best, but prepared for the worst.

The thing is, the doctors won't treat my mum if say choy really got cancer. they can't operate because of the anaesthetic and the procedure might present too high a risk. if chemo and radio, the complications might worsen and create a worst case scenerio.

In my mind, logically I tell myself that's understandable. However, in your heart you know, it's not possible to accept because it's something personal.

Hopefully we won't have to make that kind of decision.