CLAUD

Friday, February 26, 2010

my brain...argh

Sometimes i prefer having endless tests and exams than essays to write. Because I have so many ideas in my head, I have to take a very deeeeeeep breath before I start to write anything.

Today was an irony of sorts. I was late for lecture (thanks to the bus) and I could feel my prof's eyes when I entered. He's really into punctuality and he's more on than YJ teachers. So yes...embarassed much.

Then later during the break, Sabu and I were talking and didn't realise that break's over. There were people running in from the arts canteen and the LT's pretty noisy. So happened I was wearing a purple turtleneck and then he said "that girl in black and purple if you don't wish to listen I don't mind if you leave." or something along those lines. It was so acidic I thought that I might dissolve in shame or something...HAHA...sabu was like heck-caring him la

So later, he announced that he's going to give out papers one-by-one at his office. It's pretty strange given how the other profs i know usually deposit them at the general office for us to collect or give them out during lecture. HAHA...

So jiayun's gang and me went to collect and when it was my turn, he said he needed to talk to me for a while. My heart just stopped lah...i thought what happened can?! then wei jun was like "orh hor...." HAHA...but she meant it jokingly...so cute.

So happened that the reason why prof wanted to talk to me was because i did very well for my term paper and he wanted to ask me for my permission to use it next year. HAHA...i didn't know what to say and just told him "HAHA...i'm flattered...." LOL! what are you supposed to say to such things? I just giggled like some small girl la.....=.=

ok...happy happy~ sabu and i were saying that we can't imagine how he would have felt, if he realised that the girl he called out earlier talking actually wrote that kick-ass paper....HAHAHAHA...

so now my head is so filled with artsy feminine stuff that it's gonna explode. I think I am doing a mental cat-and-mouse game. Because my art prof is very critical and very right and I am second guessing everything I am going to present. Feminine art discourse is something that is touchy I think and it's something that requires a lot of content to support. So I am afraid for taking on such a big project that might either land my grade with an A+ or a C- =(

Then again, I like challenges...until i fail them that is. HAHAHAHAHA...

OK...i need to sleep on this. Right now my head is swarming with words like "Manet", "feminism", "olympia", "gaze", "stupid-nus-library-doesn't-have-the-book-i-want", "thank you shangyi for helping me on this" and "need to help yvonne find kids"

=D random but fleeting thoughts.

Maybe I should write a paper soon to expend that energy.

Geez...now i'm starting to sound like a nerd. O>O

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