Life Expectancy: 65 Years
Claud An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart. She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art. For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up, in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
WORDS OF HATE
MY FUCKING RELATIVES WENT BEHIND MY DAD'S BACK TO RENCI FOR 2 HOURS TO MAKE UP A BIG FUSS AND TELL THEM TO STOP US FROM PUTTING MY MUM THERE.
WHAT FUCKING FUCKING RIGHT DO THEY HAVE?!
WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE.
MY LIFE IS HORRIBLE ENOUGH, AND I'M ALREADY WILLING TO LET THIS GO WITHOUT EVEN SEEKING SCORES. YOU PROMISED TO LET US PUT HER THERE. MAYBE SINCE YOU CAN BREAK ONE PROMISE, I DON'T SEE HOW YOU CAN'T BREAK ANOTHER.
I CAN'T FUCKING TRUST PEOPLE ANYMORE.
WHO HELD MY SHOULDER WHEN I CRIED FOR MY MUM? MY DAD AND MY FRIENDS. EVEN MY MUM'S FRIENDS.
BUT I DON'T SEE YOU WHEN I'M IN MY DEEPEST DARKEST MOST SADDEST POINT IN MY 2008.
I'M EVEN WILLING TO LET IT GO, REASONING IT TO MYSELF THAT PERHAPS YOU'RE FEELING THAT MUCH GRIEF TOO. I THOUGHT MAYBE A DAUGHER'S GRIEF IS NOT AS GRAVE AS A HUSBAND'S, A SIBLING'S, OR EVEN A MOTHER'S.
BUT I NEVER FELT CARED FOR.
IN MY ENTIRE LIFE, ALL I EVER CARED ABOUT WAS MY MUM, AND MY MUM ONLY CARED ABOUT ME.
WHY SHOULD THINGS BE DIFFERENT NOW?
I. HATE. YOU.
I DON'T WANT TO.
BUT I WISH YOU WOULD ALL GO TO HELL AND NEVER COME BACK.
DAMN HYPOCRITES.
I WANT THE WHOLE WORLD TO KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE. HOW YOU'VE MADE CLAUDIA WONG'S LIFE A LIVING HELL. HOW EVERYDAY SHE WISHED THAT THIS WAS A NIGHTMARE AND SHE'LL WAKE UP.
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO MAKE A LIFE FOR MYSELF SO THAT MY FAMILY CAN BE PROUD OF ME. BUT YOU ALL NEVER SAW IT THAT WAY. YOU CHOOSE TO SEE IT YOUR WAY - GREED.
I NEVER HAD GREED WHEN I INTEND TO GO STUDY. ALL I WANTED WAS A FUTURE FOR MY FAMILY
IS THAT SIN?
I DON'T WANT YOUR FAKE SMILES, MUCH LESS YOUR FOOTSTEPS THAT SOIL MY HOME.
I WISH I NEVER HAD YOU AS "FAMILY". I SOMETIMES WISH I WAS ONLY RAISED BY MY MUM.AT LEAST WHEN I LOSE, I DON'T HAVE TO FEEL LIKE I LOST EVERYTHING ELSE AS WELL.
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The People/Websites that make me Smile
Friends
Kris
Yong Quan
Xinyi
Vanessa
ShangYi
Chengying
Tracey
Tarrant - poetry
Websites of interest
bits and pieces
Compilations of digital art and art photography
Food blog/photography
XKCD - for a bit of off-beat intellectual humour and sarcasm
Because public spaces can be friendly
For the trivia junkie
F My Life...
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6 Billion Secrets
Tales of Romantic Dead Ends
Graphic books, graphic knowledge
The Older Dreamer
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