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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Alterna

I'm currently at yovnne's house (again), and don't worry folks, it's not a case of running away from home.

At the moment, my mum is back at my home for 2 weeks for the chinese doctor to treat her. The night shift nurse needs my grandma's bed and so my grandma has to sleep y bed. That's why i have to find another place to sleep. hahaha.....so it's a purely logistical problem.

3 days later, my aunt called me and told me insensitive stuff that demonstrated how she jumped to conclusions and everything. She immediately assumed that i left the house because of discontent =.=', she didn't even ask me and even told me "don't be influenced by what other people say."

more =.="

Like what aunty kuan kwan said is true, they didn't even consider the logistics of my family before insisting in moving my mum in. It's not that i don't welcome my mum home, gosh no. It's just too much too soon and there's not even a proper plan that includes my father and i. My dad has to live in the living room for 2 weeks and i have to be away from my own house (that doesn't feel like my house anymore) in the midst of the project and exam peak periods.

It just makes me feel that they're being awfully selfish in this. "We're your relatives, I hope you don't see us as something negative"

How can i do that, when what you're doing all the time, is to make me feel negative?

*shakes head sadly*

*offs room light*

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Later today, my aunt smsed me to ask "how are you feeling?"

Seriously, i contemplated whether to say, "I'm not ok, because of blah blah blah..." and realised that there's too much that i want to say and how much i can't do it because of my dad. He repeatedly warn me not to cause any trouble. I want to be a source of support for my father and thus, i didn't tell her all the things etc. I'm sure my father wouldn't want that.

Another reason why was that in her smses, she assumed too much and i don't want to contribute anymore and in addition, it made me kind of disappointed that she assumed that she did.

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