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Friday, February 27, 2009

Smiles Ahead

I think these few days i've been cooping myself like a hermit is basically - i think i forgot that i have friends. Hahaha...not exactly, but rather, there are some things that disturbed be back a while and i dunno how to deal with it. So i just kept it to myself and waited for it to go away.

Clearly, i was wrong and the days made it so.

Firstly, nat smsed me and said that i've been missing and she's angry that i didn't text/call in a long while. hahaha, i tried to be defensive and came up with some lame rebuttals which obviously worked. hah hah hah...of course not la.

Next came Sok ying who out of the random blue, smsed me to jio me to watch movie. I was so shocked that i agreed. In addition, she's treating! hahahaha....ok la, it's for my belated bday present. But at least she remembered =) how can i NOT be touched?

Then later came the museum visit with Jingteng and Cindy. It was really fun and i really enjoyed myself alot. Hahaha, but it felt kinda awkward to laugh out loud like i do with 222. I caught myself laughing too loud once or twice. Heehee...so paiseh la! In time, i don't think that will be a problem anymore.

So these little things made me remember that yes, i still have people who care. I'd rather focus on the wonderful things that happened this week that the bad things i experienced today. The rubbish stuff that happened to me today is just too insignificant as compared to these things.

Furthermore, chris is having saturday supper with me and i'm meeting my gp members to finish up the survey. i can't wait! i'm also meeting sok ying later that tues to pass her stuff.

I guess the movie "He's just not that into you" made me realise that life is so much more and it's really about picking up where you fell and just moving on. I've decided to move on for sure and finally, i can say that i'm through and through with whatever past romances i had.

You know, i never could quite let go. But after that movie, it made me re-think and to re-start my romantic life again. Hopefully, with better results. =)

Although i'm feeling better, i still have a bit of left over reluctance inside to meet anyone so soon. I don't know. It's the "i just want everything to go away" feeling. Maybe the thing about my mum is catching up to me.

I almost teared when i realise that tml will the 100th day my mum is in the hospital.

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