Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

I found my previous skin irritating after a while....i can't seem to navigate properly...so i changed to something similar, same author too i think.

i got the news from the doctor that my mum's liver may be failing...liver failure is irreversible and it clears the toxins from the body. They cant even give my mum panadol because her liver can't get rid of the by-products. The body will be poisoned from within....my mum may not make it if that happens

i can state all these objectively but the worse part is breaking the news to my family...i don't know how to comfort my aunts and my dad...especially my grandma...

my grandmother, is another remarkable woman. she's so strong emotionally and fit physically. at 62, she has no high cholestrol, mild hypertension, no high blood sugar - nothing. When i told her about my mum's problems, she took it bravely and said in chinese, "life's like that, what can we do? can't be helped." gosh, her eldest daughter know?

i wish i had half her strength...

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somehow, in your head, you know where all this is heading towards, but again, your heart tells you to hold back and press on.

i welcome the comfort from friends and i guess that's the only thing that is keeping me going...knowing that when i fall, i have someone behind me to keep me from falling....i don't know what i'll do without them.

the next few days will be rocky...today marks the 21st day my mum is in coma...the numbers keep on coming.

i don't think anyone knows the pain of losing your mum, your best friend and confidante at the same time...the only person i know who has lost her mother at a younger age, is zoee....strange it seems...from a 3rd party, i also didn't know how to comfort her.....now i wish i could go back the times and tell her that i finally understand what she went through...and how brave her mum is.

it makes one to understand another.

but life, must go on.

even if my mum is gone...she will forever live in my heart and that her memory will always be kept alive by her child and her grandchildren.