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Sunday, November 30, 2008

Things that are truly important

I look at ppl's blogs these days and wonder.we used to think that our lives were the most impt thing on
The whole world,and that other ppl were not "so urgent".sometimes we forget abt the more crucial things on life.

My mum will never have a chance to complain like u did,share it like u did and I cannot stress enough how very important that is to my mum.she taught me to live life as it is and to not "put up a show" after someone is gone. Don't pretend to Love someone after they are gone.

These days, i've seen plenty of people - people being themselves. Some are here for me, some are here for my dad, mostly, they are here for my mum. I'm especially glad to see my mum's family, friends and colleagues care about her so much. Some pray, some recite scriptures, some just cried with us.

After all this while, some are just here to broaden their religious circle, some want me to believe, to accept God and the sorts. I don't know what to say. I want to tell them that i was a believer and i wanted very much to believe, but something fails - the people who want me to believe with them.

Some of her colleagues are not sincerely here for my mum. They want her to wake up by praying so that "she can join them in church". Notice it's church and not "join them with God"? Some of them are very close to my mum....but all they care is not the one lying there, but the one up there.

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For those who don't already know,

My mum has Cerebral Aneurysm, a blood clot in the main artery in the basal ganglia (bottom right of the brain) which has landed her in a coma. The doctors said my mum could be brain dead, permanently vegetative or wake up but lose function of her left body.

The doctors say that she may not make it and there's nothing more they can do to remove the clot or repair the bleeding...but we all believe she is a fighter and she will not give up.

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Some of the visitors...religion and the sorts:

How do i believe, when the truth is in my face? I have hopes and wishes, but i never intended to rely on them...I know the full extent of what's happening, and what's gonna happen to my mum. She has Cerebral Aneurysm....so check it out - you'll feel what i feel too.

When those friends came and said what they said - somehow if i was the one lying there, i rather they not come. But mummy being so open and compassionate, she'll welcome anyone who's here to wish her well.

i believe in this life and that when we all die - we will forever live in other people's hearts. I think that the courage to believe is not synonymous to a religion, it doesn't need a "Christain" or "Buddhist" brand...if you believe and trust in anything, be open and accepting, peace will find you all the same. You don't need an entity to tell you to do that.

Having said so, our family welcome all kinds and branches of well-wishes and prayers and we would want to thank you for your care and concern...that's really what kept us going until now

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