CLAUD

Monday, November 10, 2008

Talking to myself again

I was thinking before i slept last night -

During these times of meeting difficult deadlines, juggling interests between imperial and money, revising for NUS exams and my diploma dynamics, all i want to do is drop everything and slack for the whole month.

I never really shared this with people, but i always have a tendency to do someting i want - at the wrong time. For instance, when it's time to revise for exams, i watch more anime, but when it's the holidays, i go to libraries to study. On the whole, i'm re-adjusting my priorities. So right now, i'm gearig up for exams so that i can truly, fully relax during the december break and concentrate on tackling imperial. It's worrying,

In times of this financial crisis, it's difficult to get sponsorships and i'm not only worried for myself, but also for Cat. I'm still contemplating whether i shud write to the organisations before i get the offer so as to move before the recession sets in. I really don't know what to do. Yes, don't be shocked - for a person who usually knows what to do. I'm sincerely lost for now. But hey, i'll make up my mind soon =)

Sometimes, i really wish i can rest my life as easily on a higher power like my religious friends. However, claudia being claudia, well....maybe religion isn't my thing. I like to study it, contemplate its logic, marvel at its doings, but being devoted to something isn't something i'm ready to do just yet.

Having said that, i do admire the peace some people get in religion especially in times of uncertainty.

Hahahaha...i was just giving tuition to my student on cultural and religious geography. What causes people to adhere to religion? And if so, why that religion and why in this place and time? I'd like to think of it as external forces like globalisation pushing for more instability and the media causing social and moral panic - the need to seek stability. From my personal observations, I think that religion is always stable, always there and always helping those who need it. However, deep in my heart, i want to tell my student that it's really up to the individual and there is really no amount of external forces can shake you into something which you truly do not believe in. As a "teacher" (cuz i don't think i qualify as yet), this is not correct...they should think for themselves.

Anyway, work hard! Calvinistic attitudes people...Calvinistic attitudes....

Terrena's right: Grit, that's what teeth are for.=)

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