i feel very sensitive when people tell me to move on, get over it and just go into NUS in peace. i understand what you all mean, like really. i know you all mean well that i should put the past firmly behind and approach nus with an open heart.

i'm really open to NUS...like despite the stupid bidding system, it's kinda fun too. it's just that i need more time to put things behind my back and look forward. i feel that i didn't exhaust all options yet.

in any case, the only thing i regret and have learnt from this is that i should have done my planning and research earlier. i shouldn't be shy in asking people for money and i shouldn't feel denied about inquiring as well. basically, the moral of the story is to be smarter, daring and more shameless.

thank you all for wanting and wishing the best for me....i just need more time. it's just not that easy.