i thought i'd never say this: I am insane.

oh yeah...and starting to study is seriously difficult. the INERTIA is killing my brain cells.

in any case, this was what i read yesterday which made me a little worried.

"Imperial is not recommended for academic slouches, but tough entrance requirements ensure that they are a rare breed in any case."-THES

getting in is already difficult, i think staying in is even more so. yesterday night i wonder, am i going to be in it for real?

AM I GOOD ENOUGH?

is this about prestige? truth to speak, part of it yes. to belong to a world of academic glitter and finally ditching the need to "stand up for yourself". let's call this a pursuits retirement. after fighting to rise up for so long(syf and results etc), now i just want someone else to do the work. for now.

then again, it's known that imperial has always been in the competing ranks of oxbridge (oxford-cambridge). i guess in terms of academia, they are all good. something tells me that they too, are also somewhat of an underdog amongst the 3. i guess the "standing up for yourself' has just been taken to a whole new level. the underdogs of the topdogs if you know what i mean....

all right, i shall not moan about my inadequacies and do something about it.

must go study physics. (i just love the subject...looking at sine theta makes me high)

OB exam's tomorrow. wish me luck!

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how coincidental that the song "Let it be" should be played during the end of this post.

Evey Hammond: Are you like a crazy person?

V: I am quite sure they will say so. But to whom, might I ask, am I speaking with?

Evey Hammond: I'm Evey.

V: Evey? E-V. Of course you are.

Evey Hammond: What does that mean?

V: It means that I, like God, do not play with dice and I don't believe in coincidences.

Courtesy - V for Vendetta

my dad went to the bank today...he didn't tell me a lot. but like V, i, like god, do not play with dice and i don't believe in coincidences.