I feel that I am in a state of suspension. The feelings are at drifting away from the cranium and there's nothing but hollowness inside me.

Right now, all I want to do, given the the diploma test is over, is to concentrate on the physics and french that I planned to learn. It seems that the whirlwind of appeals and NUSes have not made so much as breeze through my hair. Yes, I know. It is because of my perpetual preoccupation with the overseas applications - which by the way have still not all gone through. My best hopes is that dear Imperial will come through next week.

In any case, I've half-given up on finding love in Singapore. Lest an exceedingly taurean, cancerian, capricornian or virgorian guy sweep me off my feet (and maybe into bed? okay, I'll be wearing a wedding ring first.)any time soon.

I feel that I've gained some sort of power. That power will vanish soon if I don't use it effectively now. It is precarious and delicate that any forces can and will tip this balance. Once I miss this window of opportunity, I fear that it will be shut forever.

Do you know that a chapter of Organisational Behaviour (a type of applied psychology) recognises the effects of intuition in the role of decision-making?

My intuition tells me what I want to hear. It is what I need to hear that is just as important.

Until this application mess is ironed out. I believe that my going-forwards will be more concrete. No longer will I be saying "I may be going to Manchester/London." I will be yelling, "Where's that bloody plane ticket and those disposable panties?!"

Wish me luck!

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p.s. the post below is not speaking to ex-yjcians/yjcians only except for the first italics you see. HAHAHAHA...i think the girls know where the first italics AIM at....

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i have no intention of copying xinyi on the sheep theme...so happened i realised, after posting and using the theme, that we both have themes from the same designers. =) virgos have same taste i think?

anyway...it's depressing that my themes are getting more cheerful.

oh wait. That's an irony...