the thing abt nature, is that it's unpredictable. and sometimes unexplainable.

my aunt is on a holiday at genting and so she passed my cousin's hamsters (2 of them) to my grandma to take care of. Then all's well until the next day, 1 hamster miraculously disappeared.

I've personally checked, my grandma personally checked for holes and "leakages" but there were none. and my aunt (in m'sia now) was equally dumbfounded when i told her over the phone - that sadly, one of her boy's hamsters have been kidnapped by Martians.

yeah...strange...

so yeah, i'm having a great time relaxing at my grandma's...there's nothing to worry except for an occassional sms and email to tell me what's happening around the world. not that i dun welcome it, it just seems a bit foreign to me. a sort feeling like i'm on an isolated island and then i chance upon a working handphone.then wow! i'm connected to the world again.

damn...i badly need a getaway.

anyway, edinburgh has given me a notification that they've received my application, so maybe i'll have to wait patiently until the rest gets them too.

and...despite circumstances, I'm got the teaching award...hmm, i dunno how to put this without sounding irritating.but this doesn't help...it doesn't help at all. i know there are others worse off than me and i should be grateful that at least i have so many options to choose from. However, everyone has different standards for themselves. so it's not exactly fair to compare one Joe to the next...that's why i feel trapped in this situation right now. the place i want to go, i can't reach because of financial difficulties and the places i can reach, are not as appealing to me.

I see my future elsewhere and the only thing stopping me is money. Next time, i'm going to make enough money so that it's not going to happen to my kids. I will not let money be a factor that hinders their education.

having said that, i do need a husband in the first place right?=)