hahaha....ntu called me for an interview. for a moment i thought it was MOE. omg - herat attack

anyway, my used-to-be-pregnant colleague is back this week!

which means that i can ease off the tension and be a sitting duck until i retire from this job.

hate waiting and anticipating.

hmm..should i work at borders or ikea? both sound fun and cool. but i guess borders is more worth it - the staff discounts and the swanky location. it's better than sitting in some retail show like a flower vase.

anyway, i realised i gained weight - NEED TO RUN! haiz....i think i'm aging. fine lines are appearing on my skin and i have flab. okay - i feel 25 when i'm not even there. is it a sign to start to watch my body?

i guess my family never had the culture of looking after ourselves. we prefer au naturale - my mum had this philosophy about beauty products which is - "if you don't waste money to buy make up, then you don't waste money to buy makeup remover. then you don't spend money to maintain ur face after you've put that much powder on."

okay...makes sense....but i think maintaining is good. some of us aren't as blessed as van or beryl - ppl who have porcelain skin. (i think i have all the skin problems in the world: panda eyes, fine lines around eyes, sagging skin, freckles, pimples, parched lips......)

hahahaha - okay, people who read this may think i look like a monster.

anyone who knows a good facial shop/expert? i seriously need to start prepping - after my soulmate is appearing in 115+days....now, where's that moisturiser?

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does paying attention to yourself necessarily make you superficial? i guess to a certain extent it qualifies for that term but i'd also like to think that taking care of youself is more of a pamper. a form of pampering that has tangible results. i mean, as compared to eating - why not use that money to make urself more presentable?

then comes back to what's the point in making ourselves presentable. actually, i used to think that making urself presentable is a totally "fake thing". after working, i kinda got used to the fact that making yourself look better also makes urself feel better and makes those around you feel better too.

for me, i take it as a form of play. like putting outfits together to get a look. and then choosing the jewelry etc....

then coming back to the point of liking branded stuff.

hahaha....i admit that i admire the designs of branded stuffos, but not hyped up about paying through my nose wen i know that it's beyond means.

i guess it all lands up in perception - whether you see another person the way u want to see them.

sometimes - it's funny that things like these dun have straightforward answers.