i remember telling some people that i have this feeling that something good was going to happen. and it seems that despite the overwhelming odds (and some say reality), i still believe that.

then that day, i was randomly bored. came across this astrology website and something clicked between that digital screen and my organic C-H/C=C brain. i dun know why, it clicked so well that i keyed in my particulars anxiously ie. birthday and time.

nothing happened disappointingly. so i thought that it must be some sort of a hoax and moved on to other things.

then a week ago, i received a lengthy message telling me that i am going through a favourable transition of my life. in terms of financial and romance which will last about 118 days. yeah right i thought - espeically when they want a USD60 for a reading. they'll do anything to get ppl to pay right?

but after a while, i thought about this "good feeling" i had over the year and given that i'm born intuitive (abit bhb but it's my blog right?). is this a sign that the following was about to happen?

i surprise myself sometimes. is this the rational, oh-so-logical miss wong speaking?

hahahaha....i don't even believe my mother when she said that "study loan very expensive one leh, alot of interest". i reply a "how expensive, 12% a year? isn't that 1% per month....blah blah blah" thing.

and here i am, intrigued about an astrology cum tarot reading.

given my turbulent past, maybe knowing that life is getting good that it might just be too good to be true.

especially now when i'm stuck in this job with that bitch. but i guess one can only have hope and hope.

my colleague, jessie, told me: "if you feel that being insensitive (about the issue that the bitch is talking behind my back) will make you happier, then don't you rather be that way?"

yeah...words of wisdom from a recent mother (soon to be mother of 2). should i just ignore it (be insensitive) and waddle on in my life? then yet again, it idea of KNOWING and FEELING just bugs me to the core.

so i guess i'm going to take the opportunity at good times. after all, they say that good times don't last. i guess i reallyhave a blatant expiry date, as xinyi has aptly put it, of 118 days.

wait. how many months and days will that be?

hmm.....about 2 months and 2 weeks?

okay, scholarships interviews are around that period...so hopefully i get a scholarship AND meet a cute scholarship holder as well (financial and romance mah).

then yet again, it may just turn out to be - NUS, boring boyfriend kinda thing.(to the being who grants human's wishes: i don't mean exciting as in lots of fights and passionate make ups...etc, just a stable r/s with sparks will do thank-you-very-much) - they sometimes say you can't be too careful about what you wish for.

okay...my brain is kicking into overdrive again. yes, i will hold on to the fact that good times can last. it's only a matter of perception.

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that day i was wondering, how difficult it is to change people/organisations/whole cultures.

which is why people who have done it successfully, or unsucessfully, have been highlighted in history.

what if changing of such natures become a culture onto itself. an organisation always finding improvements and people are always willing to accept the fact that they can change to be more efficient. wouldn't that be marvelous? then the only thing we have to be worried about is coping with that change.

i guess the only obstacle standing between is ourselves. Does it hurt to know your mistakes and learn from them? Yes it does, because while we always find fault in others, we seldom find faults within ourselves - even though we already know that they exist.

i guess when i have my next job, i'm going to be more initiated and make more mistakes.

not going to be that stuffy adult who thinks only about himself and getting what he wants. i can be nice but unyielding when time comes.

screw whoever that spoils my day.