trying reading my title.

now, try reading it again from the back.

it's the same right?

my point exactly. it's the same if you "read" it from the "front" or from the "back" - get my analogy?

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i wish i never would be the one to break the news. it's like the hardest thing ever to do.

haiz... i'm not a person who run away from a problem because i don't believe in that. as in, there is nothing more unsatisfying than avoiding bah. because someday, oneday, the problem will always go back to you.

don't take it personally, really - it just happens that some of us clique better with some other people. but that doesn't mean that we can't ever be friends again know? i used to be hurt by such matters but kinda learnt from it and just moved on.

people say "move on". what do they mean?

at least in this matter, i'm sad to say that i have limited VIP positions in my heart-ware store. i cannot encompass more people into it. when i have an invitation, my customer may or may not accept it. it's a lost when the customer rejects that invitation, but i know somehow along the road, another customer will be there for me.

my only worry is - what if that customer never comes?

but then my worries are unfounded. i have so many customers who still obviously care for me.

recently, i've been hooked up to celine dion's songs. one of her songs say - "love the one who is always beside you."

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i used to doubt if there is a problem. even if there is one, it's hard to bring oneself to admit it. but i realised that the sooner you admit the problem, the sooner the process of healing can happen.

xinyi: don't let anyone inhibit your path to happiness. i got this from a book - we can only find the answers when we stop running away from the questions.

nat and vann: it's no one's fault that this happens and i still regret to be the one to break the news. my suggestion would be that we just digest this and move on from here. it doesn't make me, or xinyi, less as a friend, or make you gals less lovable. and please don't misunderstand: we're not angry at anything or anyone....yeah

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ever since i lost joshua - i never took another friend for granted.