get this going

hahahahaha....i've been really busy these days that some one *points to vonk* complains that i haven't been updating.

yeah true...so i'll update soon at the office where there's nothing to do k? meanwhile, i'm off to prepare for my dreams. those who were with me all the way knows what i really want now. it seems that working for your dreams takes some price.

in a weird way, i feel selfish enough to be able to leave my friends behind to move on to do what i always wanted. yet, inside - i also comprehend the understated fact that my decision will probably cost me a heartache - unprecedented.

I don't want to think about the future so much first.

just want to get this suspense and dream to become a reality. emotional baggages have to come later because my priority is to get what i set out to achieve 2 years ago - to inspire others.

so what if you're from a middle-class school without an "s" paper? I believe how pragmatic singaporeans may be, they will not turn a blind eye to a person who burns them literally in their seats due to their passion.

I strongly believe at this instant, faith is everything.

I want that damn scholarship - for myself, for Yishun Junior College, and for my parents as well as those friends (and enemies) who believed in me.

yet, life strikes you in "ironic" ways - I haven't even gotten my A's yet. what makes me so sure of myself?

hahahaha.....complacency or self-confidence? I walk the fine line.

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Dear prince charming,

it feels like the crossroads once again. standing at the center contemplating on how my life will - quite literally- turn out to me. to the right, i have all the possibilities and obvious choices but the left calls to my attention. it promises me the experience i know i must have. yvonne told me that Robert Frost's the "Road less Taken" was written in bitterness. Those that walk the uncharted path will end up regretting their choices.

I wish somehow you were here to believe in me, when i cannot bring myself to believe. I doubt my abilities because others look down on me in contempt. However, deep inside we both know that we can achieve so much more. Although i am not the smartest, but at least, i know what i want in life.

today shangyi told me what her friend told her. “如果别人不相信你，那你就要更相信自己！”

hahahaha...i intend to believe now.

strangely, i know you would understand - this feeling of sureness and anticipation makes me think that the opportunity is only just coming by. It's akin to watching the sun rise over the horizon. when the opportunity reveals itself in full form, make me not hesistate and jump at first chance.

I know i'll regret later leaving my pals and loved ones behind.

I'll regret even more knowing perhaps, just perhaps, we'll be -quite literally again- oceans apart.

Yours for comfort,

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