UNemployed

okay....hahahaha, i'm back to square one in the unemployed list. after all the glorious moments of many job offers that i've received over the past 2 months, i'm down to being jobless afterall. indeed, life has many ways to play tricks on us.

everyone knows the saying that goes, "grab every opportunity." but i guess the person who made this quote forgot to insert "but let it go when a better one comes along."somehow i feel stupid for waiting for a teaching job. then yet again, i know it's what i really want and everyone knows i can't sit down and do nothing for very long.

so i'm trying to call other schools to see if they need geog teachers (desperately) then yet again, it seems the hod is so busy that she cannot pick up a call at her desk. no hard feelings there, just the idea of waiting and waiting can be super frustrating.

i want to go out today and just like pick up a book and read at starbucks or something. i don't want to be stuck in a grut and not do anything anymore. sorry folks, i'm not very good at idling. so maybe instead of sitting in front of the tv today, i'll just head down to the national library and grab some books and read something. anything.

and maybe pretend to write too...hahahaha, i've been thinking of doing that for a long time now. just that i think it's very hard to like put ideas into words because somehow everytime i write, people don't understand what i'm trying to say.

today is a friday. i miss fridays....for some strange reason after when school reopens and everyone is really busy with their hmwk/new friends/work, i find myself left behind in the midst of it all. people say this is a good time to find yourself again. how do i do that? writing? reading?

everyone just tells you what you should do at what moment, but nobody ever tells you HOW to go about doing it.

we should have a concert (but they never say how we should go about planning or writting one)

we should join this competition (but they never mention how we should start training)

we should find work (but they never mention what it takes to get a job)

we should we should we should.....utter rubbish.

what i should do, is what i should. not what you should.

gibberish?

hahahaha.....the rantings of an UNemployed.