i'm hooked to the F.I.R's song 月牙湾....

anyway, realised that there are jobs everywhere. i was telling kris that day when she asked me if i'm looking for a job, "yeah...but i'm dragging my feet about it." was my reply. somehow, part of me don't want my freedom to wake up at 10am everyday to go away...but hey, if this goes on, my brain is going to stagnate....

so went down to bishan to another agency and apply...yeah, they're quite efficient and the staff is very friendly and open leh...so after i came back, they called and said they have a recommendation at a few hospitals (i put nutrition and teaching as a preference mah) so asked me if i wanna take up the offer....

then it kind of hit me...once you go looking, they are everywhere...

so yah, in the process of becoming un-unemployed. (used the double negatives just so to be cute =p)in any case, i'm glad there's something i can do about my free time besides staying at home and becoming useless....hahahaha

i feel bad for spending my parents' money...is that part of growing up?damn....*laughs*

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Dear Prince Charming,

hello again! another day, another impulse to write to you. this year is proving to be filled with surprises...

my friend's better today, yeah...talked to her just now. I'm feeling very tired recently...just vexed and tired from my over-imaginative mind know? keep thinking like i'm not good enough and all...

i had a nightmare this morning that scared so badly i was crying when i woke up from it. hahahaha...i dreamt that i written and directed a play but it kinda got screwed during it's debut. the audience was bored and was chatting amongst themselves, i forgot to hire an emcee...the actresses and actors all forgot their lines and made all the mistakes that were already corrected during rehearsals...

the funny thing is that i felt a sense of calm that i could fix all of this even though i was crying. and in the dream, i told myself that "this is only a dream...you'll wake up soon."

when i woke up, a thought ran through. how nice it would be if i woke up with you soothing my head telling me "it's okay, i'm here..."maybe i've been too lonely for too long....i just talked to another friend. he told me that r/s can sometimes be scary. i've had my fair share of sob stories from friends and sometimes family. just what am i getting myself into? hahahaha...we'll fight, have cold wars etc. yet....we can't help falling in love with love.

i hope everything's fine over at your side...maybe when we really do meet...i do hope it's forever. from all the heart breaks and break ups - i don't know how many it will take to break me down. please...if you are going to break my heart, i rather we not meet....

Yours ever waiting,

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