i suppose the time when it all breaks apart is now.

I want to hate you - so much.

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yesterday was a breather...hahahaha finally got out of the house and went to the band fest concert where i met syafiah and khai...ziting, qian yu and shuchan....woohoo

anyway, after the concert met up with chris, nic and jon yeah and talked about some stuff....haiz, now i'm feeling terrible again.

sickening how these things affect you so much. living life fully has it's pros and cons...at least that is not living life superficially.

so many of us live life superficially. it's like living only for the moment kinda thing. sure, a chalet is fun and you can enjoy the time you spend with your friends...but some things go deeper.

it's in my opinion that spending time with people you care about should go deeper. like connecting with people you care about and not just "be there when it shines" and "be gone when it starts to get a little cloudy." it's cheesy lah....but it's just what i feel.

sometimes when friends say something hurting, or their attitude towards you is hostile/cold, you ask yuorself if you had done anything wrong that made them do such things to you. but then sometimes, it's not your fault. he/she may be in a bad mood and that's why...

you can be in a bad mood, but in some ways we should be considerate to other people's feelings as well. you're not the only one with a bad day and you're not the only one without sleep. other people may be very tired as well...

selfish jerk - i hope you wake up. You only care about those people you want to care about and you fail to notice the roses around you. One day, those that you want to care will soon go and those whom care about you will leave you for nothing. When that happens, I hope that you can see what i saw...feel what i felt.

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Dear Prince Charming,

I'm been waiting for 18 years and counting. From young, I've seen you met with countless Cinderallas and Snow Whites that it kind of makes me think that perhaps you don't exist for me.

Nevertheless, something tells me you're out there and I'll be meeting you soon. Although it hurts to have my heart broken so many times, I'm sure when we meet, my heart will be whole. There're so many things I want to talk to you about. I know your face because I've seen you in my dreams - literally. Yet, I wonder if you will ever appear in reality.

Prince Charming - I don't want to be heart-broken anymore. If it takes that much for you to appear, then I'd rather not wait for you. To love and be loved is all this Princess wants....To love and be loved by you is my wish for Christmas.

Yours forever,

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