hahaha....yesterday was tiring but fun...given the fact that darren only slept 3 hrs and can still be up and running itself was a miracle.

lolz...i realised it always rained when we want to go cycling. this time everyone went together! and it was more fun now given the fact that i could cycle and not to mention i was busy "siam-ing"potential collisons....hahahaha, got once i almost banged into nico lor. thankgod i braked and fell instead.

yeah, i was the first to fall that day - big surprise....hahahaha...

felt totally stupid also. because i can't do sharp turns and everytime there is a turn i have to stop and twist the bike around. dumb right? man....lucky no one see lor

since i was the most horrible of all riders, they let me go first bah, hahahaha....since i have like minimal control of the bike basically i let the bike take me wherever it wants to go.so the others were like tagging and saying "turn right!" but i turned left and chris would then mutter quite audibly "nevermind..."lolz....

oh yah...for the whole journey to pasir ris park, i had to trip over my legs, almost slipped and fall and tripped over my legs AGAIN....damn, all my tat-glam moments were caught by chris. BUT, when he fell off the bike (2nd to fall that day) i wasn't there....ARGH. not fair.

hahaha...then thanks to darren's brilliant idea to go up this really rocky slope, jon fell and his scrape was quite deep actually...yeah, so we went to the nearest toilet and while they washed their wounds, we were camping under this rest stop to wait for the rain to stop. meanwhile, there was this woman with a REALLY THICK survey form (almost the same thickness as our WR please...)approached me. she asked me a few questions and that took like about 20mins...hahahaha darren fell asleep and nico jon and chris went to the beach side to explore...i was answering the seemingly long questions. so we headed back and ate at subway so SOMEONE could see their eye candy...hahahaha anyway, nico and jon left early because nico had to reach home early so the 3 of us were left talking about stuff....

yeah...stuff

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i found out that you can open up as well.

as much as it hurts for me to say....you still have someone residing in your heart and until you can let that go, no one will ever take that place.

my heart tells me to wait for that moment when you let go....unlike the other times when i know it will be futile to wait, but this time i know something will happen. after last night, i finally realised how much i still can't let go.

all because my instincts tells me it's still not time yet - because there might still be hope.

i'm ready to be wronged.

i'm ready to be hurt again.

but at least, the next time it happens, there will be closure.

let her go....