hahahaha....in short, the camp was really quite fun. but i still miss my bed so much.....

between the 3 days i had less than 4 hours sleep - which is record breaking because i never go a day without at the VERY VERY least 6 hrs....but it seems after exams, i'm forming some pretty bad habits...hahaha

anyway, being back in band makes me realised how much i don't miss it. yes, it's not a typo error....i don't. yet again, please don't get it wrong that i've abandoned it stone cold and stuff....

maybe the objective to this camp was to see if i still have anymore untied emotional strings...but i guess i'm pretty much over it already. There's no point holding on to things that will never come back, there's no point holding on things that will make you unhappy if you don't let go soon. so perhaps, seeing that the band can somehow manage efficiently and knowing that they can play cards in the same room makes me feel safe to let go. At least, i know even if the bond is not with each other, at least the bond is together.

Besides, who needs a senior red riding hood to tosh the band around anymore? hahaha.....

however, there are some things i do miss in band, like cleaning up the storeroom together, bitching about how dirty the room is etc. and i finally finished a project which i had always wanted to do ever since i took post last year - CLEANING THE QM CORNER...wah...after seeing it neat and organised, my heart is finally at rest. and of course the playing....i miss my bass clar so much even though i bitch about it alot...but yah, i'm glad i can kiss it at the mouth for maybe the last time? lolz....sounds mushy? (p.s. kris, "your" saxophone was adoringly maintained by khairul...so no worries!)

hahaha....some cool moments was playing captains ball and the skit.....i swear marcus have some ball-magnet in his genes lor, every ball that was tossed to him, out-of-the-way or not, it always seem to land in his hand....shit...hahahaha....i ended up slapping hengkey (anyone who is the defender gets the same treatment) oh yah....jon CAN act man...hahahaha, don't see him quiet quiet lor.

although the turn-out was small....but yet again, waht about yj band is NOT small? it's not an all round bad thing anyway, it's like being small has its charms and besides, i feel at least, no one is really left out in any way.

i feel partly, it's my fault that i came. if i didn't come, perhaps they will be closer....

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I have a freedom to choose what kind of friends I want to make. They may be rich or poor, strong or weak, bull-minded or easily swayed, a leader or a follower. in my eyes, they are nothing but single entities who all have a special place in my heart called Friends.

If this freedom is denied of me, then pray tell me...what is purpose in life if we cannot choose the type of relationships we want?

We cannot choose our families, but we can choose our friends and spouses. Don't you dare intervene in this right.

We can always take some actions to prevent infringement of each other's boundaries so that we don't rub each other the wrong way. However, sometimes, the situation is simply not just that simple and please, do not do onto others, what you do not want others to do onto you...do not push your blame to others because you cannot shoulder. Think about how your friends would see you if you do so.

Please reconsider the implications of your actions.