it may seem early, given the fact that christmas haven't even passed yet. however, like i said, there's not need for an occassion to resolve something, there's no need for an occassion to be happy either.

in any way, i'm not just feeling much better, but rather i've already made peace with myself. it's like the cloud over my head has finally passed. sometimes, we go through these phases of emotional roller coasters....

in this year alone, 2007, I've experienced the happiest, and the saddest. The best and the worst. I've never laughed so much and cried so much at the same time. I guess now, like every end of the year, we all need to resolve our stuff for this year.

some may ask, why resolve? if it doesn't bother you, then why bother it?

Maybe to me, the most important thing is to live life to the fullest, I cannot understand how people can live life superficially and be happy. Live life superficially and not be tormented by your conscience. It would seem unfair to yourself. Given the change, i want to love fully and i want to be loved fully. If the heart break has to be unbearable....then at least, i know i experienced joy and pain. Not just having a taste of it.

If i have nothing to worry, then i will not worry. Poeple only start to questions, probe and wonder when it affects them, or let it affect them. Many times, people tell me to not think so much - if there is nothing to think about, i will not.

"Everytime i talk to you, you just shut up. I'm starting to think maybe the problem isn't with me, but with you Martin." - Doc Martin

yeah...can you believe, that in this world there exist people who are selfish enough to care only about themselves so much so that, they can discriminate people who care about them and choose to care for those whom they think ought to be cared?

i've met 2 such people....One of which i've said goodbye to 2 years ago. the other...well...i'm letting it go.

In life, there is no right or wrong answer. Whatever is right, is whatever that works. Whatever that is wrong is whatever that doesn't work. Ironic? So in a sense, there is a right and wrong. There is a difference of black and white. That difference is guarded by our perceptions.

Do you agree, that a bank with 30 million dollars would have much more fortifications than a bank with 3 million?

A person more guarded-emotionally, is someone with more to lose.