You - the asshole.

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okay....i believe in my intuition, although i never admitted it publicly, but yah...i do. and alot of what i do, lies in my intuition and my instincts. so why didn't i listen to my inner voice?

oh i remember now, because i was busy having so much fun to notice that something had indeed gone wrong.

(oh man, nat at this moment, i just want to tell you how it felt inside.)

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yes, right now, i'm angry at someone. hahaha...no prizes for guessing who. yeah...even shangyi felt my grit in the sms.

no, i didn't land myself in an argument. however, i forsee that i will soon land myself in some argument. hahaha....whatever that will be.

things will never be the same again, at least i left knowing that memories are made, and now i can truly distinguish those who are more important to me.

It's time to be selfish. I, too feel that there is a flawed logic in saying that people are selfish, when they only care about people they want to, and totally neglect those who also care about them. the logic lies in, why do you invest in your time in those who care about you, but you don't really give a damn about them?

well...maybe it's a bit far-fetched to say that the person in selfish. but i would draw the word "uncompassionate."

sometimes, people see themselves in other people that makes them want to connect with you. regardless about how you feel about them. It would seem that they feel that you can reflect them and in you, they learn more about themselves. So why deny them this charity?

attention is the only thing you can give to another person without hurting yourself. Not everyone is selfless, i can comprehend....yet, it wouldn't help if everyone is selfish too right?

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I'm saying all these because this is MY belief. you can agree, disagree, stand on the fence...whatever you want. However, this is a difficult period for me. Somehow i think the problem doesn't lie in me anymore..."perhaps it's you who is the problem."

Selfish jerk - you only see what you want to see, hear what you want to hear and do what you want to do. You CONVENIENCE is another's INCONVENIENCE.

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Dear Prince Charming,

I just wanted to tell you what a bittersweet day it was. First, piano lesson was great as usual and talking to my piano teacher always brings me great insights about life. Maybe it's the topic, maybe it's just the talk. In anyway, i hope yuo can meet her too...because i believe she'll like you too.

Christmas is coming! I never enjoyed christmas because to my family, it's just another ordinary day. But this year, it's such a great feeling to feel loved and beloved...maybe i'm insecure, hahaha....however, it's great how things work out. At least i can lift my head again and walk on the bright side.

Oh yah?I recently made up my mind to let a friend go. In a sense like to not bother with his affairs anymore and to not care about what he goes around. But darling, it's difficult because his actions and attitude are hurting those closest to me. I cannot understand why someone would do such a thing to hurt people around them. Is it because he doens't like us? If that is so, then why did we have a good time everytime we go out? It's a bother and it hurts alot to know that he doesn't care anymore. I meant that as a friend - it's hard to let someone go.

Thank goodness i have you to think of every night. And my prayers to my friends are always answered. Maybe this time my prayers are abit late but something tells me they will be answered in time to come too.

Hope to see you soon! I have a feeling that we would definitely have alot to talk about =)

Yours Infintely,

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