had morning piano today with yiyi, hahaha.....that's why can blog now

so supposedly i plan to go home early because of my flu and sore throat. but as usual, talking to yiyi was just so irresistable that hahaha....delay abit never mind one lah

anyway,i realised going out without a watch is a good thing. it slows time down and makes you more aware of your company and the focus is on your friend, rather than "what time it is" - like there's no rush to go anywhere

i kind of enjoy that feeling. although last time i always chide at people who have no sense of urgency, sometimes having no sense of urgency (every meaning of the phrase) relaxes and eases the nerves much better...

anyway, yesterday i was just thinking before i go to sleep (tend to do that alot, which explain why i cannot have a good night's rest and dream alot) - when people go through bad times, it's a natural reaction to want to hold on to the good times they have had with each other. However, sometimes, when we cling on too much to the good "memories" we lose track of what is actually happening. we lose focus on the actual progress of the relationship.

which is probably why, it's happier and easier for one to let go of the past and treasure them in a memory box, than to use that and hope that this relationship goes back to "what it had been."because sometimes it's not possible to go back to how your relationship was because if that is the case, then the friendship,r/s will never move forward. it will never progress to the next stage.

i mean, you agree the saying that - whatever doesn't break you only makes you stronger right?

so whatever that doesn't break yuor r/s only makes it stronger too!(that's according to logic, but hey, not everything in relationships are logical anyway.)

anyway, my point is that i don't mind moving on and letting go, it's the process of GETTING there that sucks...like the pain, confusion, FRUSTRATION and self-doubt that i can do without....

in any case, the best we can all achieve is treasure every moment like it's the last, and enjoy all the time you have with your friends. oh yah....one more thing-don't regret having crossed paths with each other. there's never such a thing as a wrong or right friend. every friend is sent to us as gifts, as lessons and as reminders of how fortunate we are to be living in this earth.

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Dear Prince Charming,

it seems that somehow, i keep asking myself - when is a person ever ready for a relationship? i see couples around me, like those i know and those i know from people, there's all sorts of "problems" and uncertainty that could have been cleared if they were frank or made clear before they were together.

can all problems be evaded if both parties were true to each other's feelings in the first place? Oprah once had a show about brides who didn't get married because they didn't feel comfortable about the wedding. they didn't feel comfortable about they man they were going to marry. in other words, they turned their back on their husbands-to-be, yet they never regret but were rather relieved at their decisions. They listened to their gut and each of them found happiness later on.

Sometimes, in the heat of the moment and the wave of emotion makes us forgo our inner voice which tells us what we NEED to listen. well....love is blind they say. they dont "say" that for nothing.

In all occassions, i'm glad you're that special someone waiting for me - wherever you may be. I don't have to tell myself that i'm not worthy of being loved because you loved, love and will love me for all eternity. accuse me of a being a romantic, but even common folk can find heaven on earth too....

Yours in time,

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