oh well....i can so predict another unproductive day today...but anyway, i just saw something that really touched my heart alot.

talk about television affecting consumerism and altering the mindsets of people, yeah....it's largely true because somehow, wedding dresses, wedding cakes and the ring always have a way with my heart.

i'm sure every girl wants to walk down the aisle once...or twice(thank you, once is enough for me).there's this show talking about all things wedding that set my heart racing again - like somehow there's this rush to get married and all

in the show, they were showcasing this particular dress that costs 80 thousand taiwan dollars..(anyone can convert that?) but what's so special about it, is not the price but the thought that goes behind it. the bridegroom actually brought his bride to loads of wedding shops to choose the dress of her fancy. so when she was picking the dress style that suits her most, (ie. empire line, bell-bottom etc)the bridegroom was actually "spying" on what she actually likes. so finally, when the bridal shop got the bride's measurements to alter the gown that she has chosen, the bridegroom actually went back to the bridal shop and asked them to design a one-of-a-kind dress, in the style that he bride has chosen, for the wedding.

and the sweetest thing? because both of them met and fell in love under a sakura tree, and he proposed to her under a sakura tree in japan, he wanted the lace of the dress to have the sakura tree branch (you know, the arching slender tree branches?) on the dress....oh man, like that is so sweet. and if it isn't sweet enough, he kept it from his bride until the day the dress is delivered to her. which means, she won't know about her new dress until the day she gets married! how sweet is that man....wah...this kind of husband i want!

hahahaha....imagine all the running about with his bride and the masquerade he has to put up...hahahaha, and the fact is, he actually bothered with the details which are often left to the girls. you should've seen that gown - on the branches where the flowers are suppose to be, real crystals are embedded on it, it looks like a sakura tree in winter with snow covered on it.

bling bling~

oh man...anyway, i'm only 18 going on 19 and this isn't really the time to be fantasizing wedding. but the thought did distract me from the endless boring day that i'm going to go through today. hahahaha....indeed

imagine how heart-warming it is, to hear the church wedding bells in the midst of a blizzard. it is comforting to know that in times of adversity, there is still life. weddings can be so touching sometimes.

it makes me want to settle down soon you know?hahahaha...as early as it seems, although many people i know are afraid of relationships and all, but i'm willing to take a bet on love. because i've seen it work, and seen it not work at times, there's really nothing i wouldn't try for.

don't turn your face away from love. many musicals, plays and stories speak about the long nights and cold days people go through when they abandon love. from phantom of the opera to les miserables - those who have the courage to embrace difficulties pull through and find what they are looking for in the end.

as heartbreaking as a failed love can be, sometimes, we have to give ourselves that second chance and open our hearts to people we love. it doesn't matter who love who more, it's the happiness that both of you feel that is more important.

if you close your heart to your own true life-long happiness, then you're depriving yourself from the joy of life. not that i'm saying you should just grab any guy off the street and marry him or something, but rather, if you know you love this person, and this person truly loves you - don't deny yourself that right in that happiness.

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i finally understood why my mum loves to collect barbie dolls with wedding dresses. she never got to buy back that dress of a life-time because my parents couldn't afford it at that time.

it's a momento in what could have been...no matter how many dolls my mum can buy, it will never fill the void she feels inside.

it's the same, no matter how many relationships you have, if you know you're not with the one you love, then you will never be truly, truly happy.

next time, when i get married (somehow by miracle), i'll buy that dress no matter what and frame it in the house. a daily reminder of how far we're come to become married and in case of any fights, it'll serve as a revelation that being married takes more than just romance.

like a wedding dress - the making of one is requires passion, but the maintainence of it, the lace, the sequins, requires much love and commitment.

call it a single's romantic fantasy - i don't mind being proclaimed as one =)

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updated as of 1:10pm

speaking about weddings.....sometimes heaven works in strangely efficient ways

my mum got a call from my uncle (dad side) that my eldest cousin (the prettiest!) is going to be married on the 2nd of december and she has asked me to be a bridesmaid, along with my other cousin who is the about the same age as me. hahahaha...oh man, can't wait la. although we're not very close, but i'm sure we will be after the weddings...to think that she actually asked me, well, it's really touching. i'm sure you guys will say i'm paranoid again, but in think my dad's side people don't really like me bah. maybe they think i'm arrogant or simply boring.

hahahaha....but anyways, i'm honoured.

btw, do you believe in the myth that an unmarried girl who becomes a bridesmaid twice will become unmarried for life? in that case - i'm doomed, because i've been the flower girl thrice...damn (my mum was the first to get married see?)

wohoo!i'm not the one getting wed, but damn well close enough!