hahaha....felt a goddamn lecturer yesterday...or was it today morning?

sometimes when a family has too many guys, they become too man then it's like things happen....see what i mean?men needs women in life, but a woman may not necessarily need a guy...okay, maybe to carry the shopping bags but that's all there is to it.

anyway....my mum came back from the funeral yesterday. she said like my grand-aunt, which is his grandmother, was devastated and she was crying so badly...oh man. what breaks my heart in a way, is that he left so many people behind. all his friends came down to help out at the funeral and my family was so grateful for that.

a passing makes you reflect about the things you have done in life.

你有没有对不起的人？

你有没有还没有原谅的人？

你有没有还没认错的人？

i believe everyone has....in life, it is not about having the right answers, but asking the right questions.

Life is not Happiness. rather what in Life makes you happy?get the drift?

so it's not whether someone will mourn your loss, but rather have you done enough to leave behind a mark of yourself in this world? it's difficult this "how much" but i believe we all have a set of scales in our conscience. if we know that in this life, we have lived up to this conscience, then indeed you have asked the right questions.

what i did yesterday, although is not exactly a very glamourous job, was necessary. sometimes, while people still care, there is a need to salvage whatever we can. human beings are walking contradictions. we can kill each other, we can murder. yet, we also can support each other and we can do selfless things for a friend - casting aside our pride and dignity for another soul.

you only hold on to an idea, although you know it's bad, is because you LIKE the idea. you are COMFORTABLE with the idea and you do not wish to STEP OUT of your comfort zone. ironically, you cling on knowing that it wouldn't do you good in the end. it's like what my friends had been telling me: change for yourself, not for others, so that you may live a better life.

live your life like you're personally writing a book. yet, in this book there are 2 simple rules. you cannot refer to a dictionary to check your spelling and you cannot cancel or erase any wrong word/grammer. besides the idea that you cannot go back and change what you did, another more important idea entails. it is the idea that when you are finished writing, you are most certainly going to read what you wrote. during that time of reading, do you want to be contented that you did a good job? or regret and remorse that you had made so many stupid spelling mistakes? like spelling marriage as marraige?

it's your call. if you complain that life holds nothing for you, then you're not asking the right questions.

it should be: What can you offer life?

you can be tired about life and stuff, but ultimately, it is what you make from it that gives that meaning to your life.

it's like a cycle, once you start it, it will always be that way - at least it has worked for me so far.

you give, you receive and you give back in return so that you receive again.

you fulfill your dream and see the discipline to carry it out and the results will fuel your dreams again.

it's like initial investment goes into the economy, aggregate demand goes up, and spurs more optimism so there's even more investment - the accelerator theory...

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i'm glad so many people pay attention to this small space of mine....really grateful i mean something to this special group of cyber people. i hope that whatever i said has made a difference in your life somehow =)

anyway, maybe this is my over-sight in some area. but does anyone go to my old blog? if not, it's okay...hahahaha, it has revived in some sense. i'm not going to make life difficult for you guys for having 2 blogs, but in any way you all are free and have nothing else better to do. the links down there...hahahaha....

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