so the story goes....

hahaha....still have loads of holiday hmwk left to do, still procrastinating over the fact if i should NOT do them...especially those dreaded geog corrections - how do you correct yourself when you have no idea where you went wrong?

have you heard about practice?

well...it always occurred to me that it's a double-edged sword. if you wanna read my ideas move on, if you know this will bore you...read someone else's blog instead.

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so, it's like that. i was just finished with vacuuming(because my mum and dad are at work again) and this idea occurred to me.

if you keep on practising the same wrong move for like the next 10 years, would you even notice that whatever you do, isn't working? that's when the vacuum came in. because while i was happily sweeping the floor, i realised that i've never been able to vacuum as cleanly as my mum. as ridiculous as it sounds. but there are very little variables to consider.

both my mum and i put the vacuum speed to 100% and both of us use the same vacuum head... what's left is the way i vacuum. and i realised that i never had a systematic way of sweeping. it's always left at an angle, and right at an angle, and there's always a gap of dead matter i never managed to suck up. (people who vacuum will understand what i'm trying to say) so that becomes a habit everytime i vacuum. and i've been doing it for years....

so today i decided to try something different. to picture my room as a grid and start vacuuming according to that imaginery line...and viola, i managed to cover more room in less time. no more guessing as to which spot i haven't covered and wasting time.

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i guess the same motto applies to how we do things. it seems very virgo-ish to say but i think more or less there's a system in everyday things. how we study, how we react and how we feel more or less follow a fixed set of pattern. the pattern can vary but the overall "shape" of things remain constant.

that's why it's easy to predict what happens next in a movie, or what will occur afterwards in a disaster because human beings always abide and "practice" a certain set of agenda when things happen to them.

and that's where the double-edged sword comes in. because one first learn how to react by learning from others...agree? if you don't agree then maybe an analogy would help. lets' say you're now 5 years old...and you see a really nice toy that you want and you bail at your mum to get it for you. for strict parents they'll tell you shush up and move on, for more lenient ones, they'll buy them for you. but your reaction becomes an outcome of their reaction....if you're told to move on, you are not rewarded for this kind of behaviour but if they buy it for you, you are rewarded for the behaviour that you can do anything you want.

over time, as they relent, you "practice" and over the years as we grow up, we expect the same outcome of things. for example, when your friends disagrees with you, you feel this tang of unsatisfied things and you push your way. if you're not rewarded for your actions, then when you grow up and you disagree with yuor friend, you will relent and think about it.

so it's the same with study....in sec sch, if you try to just read your notes the day before for that one test and managed to score pretty well, you're rewarded for working last minute. but if another person does the same, he/she cannot deliver the same results and so he/she's not rewarded by that kind of behaviour. overtime, when you go higher, you're so used to the same method and although results don't deliver, you still "expect" it to...which is why our teachers warned us in the beginning that we cannot rely on last minute work - i have a nagging feeling that they've seen more than we do.

then when can we tell that whatever we practise is helping us? i guess the answer is very simple - like what many corporate people will tell you, "if the system works, stick with it" if say you're scoring in math everytime with that study method, then stick with it. if that particular study method starts to fail, then try another method until it helps. in that way, you're evolving and growing more mature in your study. a study method cannot follow your throughout your life...the higher you go, the more flexible and adaptable you have to become...that's why studying is so fun. nothing is ever fixed.

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if you are rewarded for something you do, please have the sense to ask yuorself this. is it worth it? but if you're not rewarded, also ask yourself - is it necessarily bad?

sometimes our subconcious, which is aka a hunch, instinct, intuition, tell us more about ourselves than we like to. in whatever you do, one has to follow what your subconcious tell you so that you can be "rewarded" for good behaviour and is deserving and fruitful to other people.

afterall no matter how much we want to avoid, people-to-people relations are everywhere. and i used to want to avoid them but now, a new light dawned on me that perhaps instead of avoiding it all the time and then feel bad about it. it's better to face it and gain new experiences. perhaps living in the light means to take whatever that's coming at you with a smile and to solve it with a conscience.

right now, my conscience is very clear about whatever that's going on. maybe that distance from school helped me realised more....no more, do i feel that unsettled feeling and no more do i feel queasy...because i learnt that 3 step process from darren...hahahaha

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practice with care...and make sure you are not practising a system that you do not derserve.