yeah....i'm at home,and its my bleeding week again.kinda glad it's here because at least i know i'm still healthy.

okay, cooking lunch now and hope my porridge doesn't come out too wet...=)

hahaha....surprisingly, i got quite abit done today, finished the whole of the organic chem revision package and my gp hmwk. so i'm almost 3/8 done....

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i realise that i get very anxious when ppl don't reply my msg because last time, when ppl don't reply, it's something of imminence. hahahaha....but not saying you guys have to reply me instantly lah...if you all are really busy i understand de.

anyway, you knw some people have words that make them feel uneasy right? like nat is - whatever (and dog)....but i guess it's normal. because recently found out that i dont like people to say, "anything lor"/"i dont' want to tell you something because....."/(not replying when i ask a question)

hahahaha.....maybe it's a peeve of mine but i hate thinking too much, yet i do that all the time. perhaps i should stop this cycle of self-deprevation and really not think too much...

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besides....i have friends and family who care about me alot and likewise. and according to theory, there are many possibilities why the person is NOT doing something why he/she said that.i guess mostly the solution is to be more self-assured and trust that when people have a problem with you, they will tell you.

that really answers the question....why i feel more carefree with people whom i don't know very well as compared to people i care alot. it's because i care about their feelings so i become more self-concious and self-reprimanding when they're feeling down and all. however, with almost complete strangers, i don't have to think too much...that's why i feel that i express myself better around people who are equally straightforward and frank - like cindy and vonk, the ultimate examples.

-=)be more self assured....then wild thoughts won't do much damage