consolation

just got off the phone with nat about huishan....really hope she's all right. really, sometimes one can't deny that health is really an important thing.

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=)thanks nicolette for always hearing me out.....your words never fail to console me

thanks darren....for being forever frank and saying things that people normally wouldn't have the courage to say

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i haven't been able to sleep well....perhaps it's the stress that's building inside me. hahahaha, i guess it's only time to tell whether i'm stressed anot is that i start having vivid dreams.

anyway, it's 1 month from a's and i still can't find the momentum to start to study. like i know there's alot of things to catch up to. and my friends in other schools are already mugging like since forever, sometimes it's hard to not compare yourself with them.

all i really want now, is to get over this a's in one piece and start something anew next year. like start to live the life i want. afterally, 18 going on 21 is a time to explore what you truly like and not mourn later in your 30s over "why haven't i done this...etc."

there's nothing i would rather want to think of than to spend precious time with my friends in school, and even after jc, i hope to keep in touch with them for life =D

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whatever the situation now, i still want to treasure 122/222 and the memories we've build together in these 2 years. maybe it's not a easy thing to do, because afterall, new friends come and occupy new parts of your life. however, i think this period will become like a nostalgic memory to talk about and i'm sure we'll all move on and be more mature.

nico,darren,jon,chris....hope we can still meet up even after promos and a's!hahaha, if you all don't find me bothersome that is....but really...those times were one of the best i have in yj....

vonk!i want to go out with you, you're booked i say....booked....

there are some things in which we have to let go so that we can move on. however, sometimes i feel that letting go is selfish but after you've done so and see the picture in a different way - maybe it's all for the better.

we choose what relationship we want with other people conciously, or subconciously.our actions silent inform others how we want to be treated. but many times, people are either too consumed with themselves, or are too preoccupied with other matters to bother what you're trying to say to them

that's the society we live in.....we're often too busy with our own interests that we forget in everyway, we're affecting those around us.

it's not a matter if people like you or form a good impression of you that makes you feel secure inside. rather, how much attention you give to your closest friends that make them feel secure and in turn makes you feel a whole lot better. isn't that what a relationship is all about?

that i think...is my interpretation of what best friends are all about. that unspoken trust and unlimitless attention they share with each other.