listen up!it's finally snowing in HERE...hahahahaha thanks vonk for the html code that works...you won't believe it but we tried many symbols and fonts to finally settle on erm....this cliche one...hahahaha.

it's my 150th posting peopl! rejoice rejoice....*throws sparkles*

anyway, today went to yj again to get some chem stuff from nat...cuz the book shop auntie couldn't print it in time, must be the photocopier spoil (again) bah

so yupz...today spend a bit of a time interpreting my dreams because yesterday i had a really vivid dream about band, the whole lot, even ms luo and mr sim kaisuah and also another dream about a weird grade 7 repetoire book that was dark blue in colour and the last dream was about, well...wearing white and singing in white studio with ella and hebe. weird right? anyway, the interpretation of the last dream (according to the book) is that i'm going to have a happy beginning. okay, so at least that's a breather.....

moving on, while waiting on the bus, i was reading the book vonk gave me to write in so that as to gain some sortof inspiration. and perhaps let's say that i gain more than just inspiration?

sometimes, it's very weird to like a person even before meeting that person but it happens i guess. while waiting for the bus, i was reading yuzhen's entry to yvonne and to quote her,

"people always talk about friends and regard someone as a friend, once they have a conversation of more than 50 sentences. but what i have learnt 2 years ago, friends - its not an easy word to use. being a friend meant that no matter what the other part said about you, no matter how much it hurt you, you'll forgive them if they truly apologise. If not, you two are just aquaintances. i guess being a real friend is difficult isn't it?.....Friends forever - it's easier to say than really actually put it into action."

yuzhen: if you're reading this, i just want to let u know that your words vibrated into my heart and it made me stop and think about the friendships i have around me. hope you're not offended that i peeked into your words and quoted them here. but i feel so strongly about it that sharing becomes the only option for my appreciation for your words.

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wonder, when a person has alot of friends it means alot of things. firstly, they don't really know how important each and every person who cares about you is. but i know of some people who can be so generous and gracious that they forgive and forget the mistakes of their friends when they apologise. i'm grateful to have friends like these who are willing to forgive the hurt i've caused them....

sometimes, human relations are intricate and elaborate at best, messy and complex at worst. and after going through so man conflicts and mis understandings, i realise that when people are usually angry at each other, they say hurtful stuff that they don't mean. however, the damage is already done and sometimes it becomes very hard to reconcil this friendship anymore.

yes, even though you know the other person is in the wrong, don't be rash and do even more damaging things that hurt people around you. this is because you never know that the person you wanted to hurt, may not receive but rather the ones who feel it are the people closest to you. that's why anger is a terrible thing....it's not called a self-consuming fire for nothing.

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if i've done anything wrong, i hope at least you could still give me the change to apologise for what i've done. maybe it's too late,and right now, in your eyes, i'm not fit for you to allow me to apologise. but that's okay, really....soon, i'll find the courage to go on and move on with my life but yet gaining another lesson of life - that mistakes you do, carry on with you and the wrongs that one commit is not easy to erase. in order words....we'll all grow up to be more careful and tactful (in my case).

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after secondary school, i think i've come a long way to who i was and there's a time and place for everything. right now, it's time for me to bid goodbye to my old self and embrace the possibilities that await me. i have friends.... to the truest sense .

"when you quarrel with your friends and you are really angry, cool down for a day and call her the next day to talk things out. Situations shouldn't be left there and hoping that time, dust, powder or any other unknown particles will cover it. even if its covered, it still can be wiped off with a sponge."(also written by yuzhen)