i dunno what is going on....not sure if i want to know either....whether this blows off, maybe it's just up to the individual, but it seems there's too much for me to handle, and it'd be better to back off for awhile.

oh well, just got back some of the results, some sweet ones, so bitter ones...but hey, the bitter ones are there to remind you of the sweet ones...so yupz, not giving up yet!

anyway, i don't have a mind to blog right now, there's still much that i want to let out of my system and there's much thinking to do.

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this reminded me why i turned to buddhism in the first place....like it finally hit me why i follow the teachings of buddha, after all these while....

i yearn for inner peace right now. my conscience is clear and my heart is free, although i may have some uncertainties in the past, now, i am very very sure who i love, and who loves me and nothing will ever change that, not the stars, not the sea not anything

lost and yet, not knowing where to be found. i now refuse to live my life through a kaleidoscope...after talking to nat,i realised how much more we can be grateful for

known and yet, not wanting to be known....the reluctance to put up with life. i now refuse to revisit the place which reminds me how less i mean to you, and how much you mean to me.

i have gone to a place in space, where the only people i love and cherish, love and cherish me the same and in turn i love and cherish them because of it.

fate played a trick

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i'm sorry if i had done anything to make you feel this way right now. it may be a misunderstanding or it may be something else, but i hope, (if the problem lies on my side,) that you find peace in a way or another....