hmm, something doesn't feel right here and i know i'm thinking too much again...

anyway, today school was rather boring and i'm too sleepy to really give a damn...hahaha mr lim's interview talk was quite entertaining because it was very much monologued...earned loads of laughter from 222...anyway, quite informative and it's useful la, you'll never know when you'll need those skills

okay, tml's teacher's day and i still haven't write te cards...totally beat today

really appreciate it when nat noticed, it's really true, when you're down, you really just want someone to give someting as simply as a pat on your shoulder haiz...when i'm tired and cranky, every single thing bothers you - the chair is too noisy, the table is rocking too hard, the canteen is too crowded etc....

so yupz, i guess it's really over huh. after talking to the both the capricorns i realised what i want for myself, and maybe things do happen for a reason and i should just move on...if we don't move on and get forever stuck in this sticky mess, then maybe it's not doing good to anyone.

in times like this, your jrs look for you for support, and yet, this is the only thing you can do for them...it's alright, i don't mind...but i do mind if this drags on for too long.

the root of all conflicts is misunderstanding, and the accelerant is miscommunication. the thing about problems hear-say is that we draw up our own assumptions and eventually conclusions about how we want things to be perceived and not how things really are. right now, i'm trying really hard to be objective and perceive fact and not get too much of my opinion get in the way.

however, i'm taking a week off from school to study with yvonne so that i can finally clear up my mind and focus.afterall you were the one who told me to consider friendships in a sense that if you would still want to continue it after you leave school...i'm taking your words and putting it into action. but somehow i feel something is not correct, like what nat told me, some friendships continue in your heart even though they are not present physically... sometimes people don't say things they mean all the time because they don't want to hurt other people's feelings and make them affected. does it make them a hypocrite?yet, i've witnessed people who are really kind to have taken such action to keep the friendship going...i wouldn't call them hypocrites bah

i think hypocrites are people who don't give a damn about other people's feeling and say one but mean the other just for the sake of their own or for the sake of protecting themselves...but often, people in times of trouble, want to talk things out and voice out their thoughts to a close friend they trust so that they can find their way into the friendship again....then is it fair to judge?for me....if the friendship is repaired because the person gets some unhappiness off his chest, then i think all's ends well is well.

however the scenerio, i think it is important to keep in mind the big picture and not jump to conclusions about things, we never know what the person is actually thinking and we never know what insecurities a person might have. in his/her speech, we can some how tell where they feel less, but we can never tell why they feel less...and not all rational thought can answer these assumptions we hold inside. furthermore some actions of the person may reaffirm your assumptions and this calls for self-fullfiling prophecies that may not serve the best interests of everyone.

do you agree that we choose our lives? so if one is brash enough to say, do we say that we choose our friends also? in a matter of sense, it's a responsibility as a friend to care about other people...but more crucially, you care because you want to, not because you're obliged to.

sometimes, i feel obliged....but luckily that is all over, right now, i'm going to care for those people i want to care about, not obliged to care about....