seriously speaking, my feet are damn dry can?like scaly dry.....it's time someone gave me some feet conditioner from scholl or something....damn

hahahaha, besides that, my face is gaining in pimples....on the the logarithmic scale so to speak....so like they're adding 10^1, 10^2 every passing week....haiz, really, a dermertologist studying pimples, freckles, blemishes, black spots, pus can just study my face

anyway, i was talking to nicolette and this topic just came up like damn randomly....about the connection between people.

sometimes do you feel that you like that particular someone in some way that yuo cannot place? for example, you talk to this guy and then you realise that he can understand just about everything and anything about what you're talking about...and you suddenly feel drawn to him(or her). then we think that we're starting to like, "love" the person, especially if this feeling persists for a few months....it's actually not really, i'd like to think that you've found the feeling of finding a good (life-long perhaps?) friend. because this same feeling happens even between the same gender, unless you have some sort of proof that all human beings have a gay side, you can't exactly pass that off as infatuation even.

so i thought maybe people may misunderstand that 2 ppl talking all the time may happen to like "like" each other, where the idea is actually they've found a good friend in each other (unless i don't know that i'm les)....i don't know but i get this feeling quite a few times like with yvonne, shangyi etc. it's not that i'm saying all my other friends become un-important because of this, but i believe that all friendship have a part to play in your life, some more direct than others. thus great friends, besties influence each other directly....other friends can have an impact but just more subtle and not too direct - but they are just as important

recently, i've got this great feeling again....like finding 2 great friends which understand what i'm trying to say and to say the least, it's the greatest feeling on earth to be able to connect to other people in a special way and be able to feel rooted. for now, i'll treasure this warm and fuzzy feeling.....

the heart grows fonder even if couples part....even you people of the opposite sex may meet everyday, it doesn't mean anything will happen, look at my dad man....he plays tennis with his girl-friend (erm named tracy?) but when his girl-friend introduced my mum, looked how it all turned out....(did i mention i'm the primary evidence of the scene?)

anyway......take things lightly when it comes to relationships bah, that's how i've taken this approach ever since i come into yj, doesn't mean that 2 friends don't meet means they don't care anymore, on the contrary, the heart grows fonder.....oh yes....guan yu, it's really not like that between them....after talking to nicolette i've gotten a much clearer picture, when i have the chance i'll tell you soon k?

don't judge people base on presumption and think that they are correct because what happens is that perhaps it may not be what you think - that things really can turn out differently

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i used to be rash with my words and tone, and even to date, it's still a struggle....but improvement is on the way

so i understand what you're going through (and trust me it sucks), and if you're reading this by any chance, i'll be here for you if you ever need me, because afterall, we're friends =D

change is the only constant - we stubborn human beings who hate change will just have to embrace our careless consequence that results of desire and greed.