maybe ritty was right, i am selfish...i'm selfish in a way that i don't think about how others feel...

just today during math it was really really very noisy despite mr see having to keep us quiet....and i'm sure many of us didn't do well for this math paper...so why is no one listening?so it got into me and like get me thinking why no one is taking it seriously already? ching said that they are really too much, like they have so much to talk about even after they've seen their friends whole day in school.

how not to blame them? it makes it even more difficult when they are your friends...and you know that you can't study with people talking around you....then how not to get angry? talk with them? but i don't want to.....i want to listen. am i going to be a freak to listen?

i am selfish by asking them not to talk....it's easier if i tune myself to block out all their noise and focus on mr see....and his words will probably come out like that, "so...if you differentiate this to get *laughter*, and after that you bring this over and you'll have x-1 *"hey you know that person...."*. so understand?" i'm good at blocking out noise, but i'm not perfect at blocking out noise. maybe i should train myself more....

and is it okay to say that you're also being selfish by talking when others want to listen? when i talk, i always assume that other people don't want to listen. or at least the person i'm talking to doesn't want to listen....can it be that this ceteris paribus assumption does not hold.

either way, i'm not doing good ay snapping at people...it's not very nice, but there's a limit to everything. no one is ever noisy by themselves.....but come together and they chat like they've only just met.

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xinyi's right, it's not that they are not taking it seriously, maybe they just need a break....afterall they did study but they didn't get the results they want...i understand how that feels, and that feeling sucks big time.......