shit pile

this week has been great....finally the energy to study have finally flowed through my veins and everything seems to be in focus...people, just psycho yuorself to study, say things like "i am smart....what is prelims...it is nothing....study study study" and you may just be on your way to success (should be lah)

anyway....today waht xinyi told me like pissed me off....it's like total malign lahz. thank god he's not the principal or else i think the whole school might just see some students ponning and a whole lot of teachers resigning.what has beryl, adrain and kris got to do with the letter anyway?it's like saying global warming is solely beryl's fault because she's in the aircon room and using it. or trying to say that adrain is taking up air because he's breathing or pinpointing kris as a gp rep by not scoring perfect 100 for GP exam....

"you're not good leaders." - what rubbish....like the mistakes of your incapable admin staff and insolence could be blamed on your "leaders" who have no part in this at all. besides, what has a puny little pink-fonted letter got to do with you? then i dare question, why are you so insistent on putting that little pink-fonted letter on mrs **** table? will it leave some sort of promote-me-respect-me scent for her? god.....use that big brother of yours to think!

haiz....it's time somebody said something...like math asp...i'm glah beryl helped us out with that one.

anyway.....back to happy stuff (wohoho)

yestd asp was damn funny lahz....as usualy, mr lim reacts with aircon and the lt was freezing cold that day too. not too long after the bell, he started going through the answers when his phone rang aloud. so he answered and said something intelligible in chinese i think and then offed the phone and said to us, "my mother, she ask me whether want to eat dinner anot. scared i hungry."

then shortly later, another phone call came in, so obviously frustrated, he placed down the pen and answered, and said something like ,"later, going...." and then put down the phone and said "my father now ask me."..

not too long after, ANOTHER phone call came and being very irritated by the first two, he answered abit loudly this time, loud enough for the 4th row (where i was) to hear something like, "hello? yah....sorry i'm in er....a meeting now.yah...okay okay..." and after hanging up, he said "insurance."this time the lt really lol-ed...

haiz.....a spurt of warm feeling (whee~)

anyway....kinda demoralised after doing the MJC paper...haiz, got a whole lot of questions that i have no idea about.....although i think i should have known if not for the nagging feeling in my head that says "move to the next question! you're spending more than the allotted time!" it's time i shut that voice up and concentrate on the question.

blah-and today soon yong, who has never talked to me much before sat beside me during econs and asked me, "eh, how you study for geog?"

frankly speaking, i'm not stunned by the question, but rather the person asking the question. a stranger - almost - asked me something like this...it really took some kinda face and guts. and i tried to answer in a not so proud way....haiz.....

what is unbelievable when i tell people that "there is no secret, just know the concepts and clarify them if you dont know them." and "i sleep at 10pm" and "i don't study when i get home" and "but i listen during lectures and dictate what the teachers say." apparently the look on soon yong's face doesn't believe that i do those things. but my close friends know that i almost never sleep in lectures (unless they are all useless) and i don't reply after 10 or 11pm. time management, a simple concept that people don't seem to grasp. we cannot give in to the sloth inside us....there's a trick i use....when you think about slacking, always plan on how you are going to make up for the lost time.

like today i plan to study math in the afternoon, but after getting the harry potter book from beryl i couldn't resist to read 125 pages of it. so you have to force yourself to stop at chapter 4 and move on. DON'T GIVE IN TO THE TEMPTATION! but on suc problem is that you procrastinate. yah....so have to be disciplined bah....not easy, and i'm grateful that my nannies were strict with me in the past...forcing me to study for 2-3 hrs straight with their kids...(whom are now in NJC,RJC and an ex-VJC)

these things are really reinforced from young. now you know why some of your parents force you study even though you very much want to play with barbie or watch the telly?these external benefits (benefits borne by third parties) come about immediately, but the private benefits only hatch when you're older.

just think - when you get yourself into the University, are you going to be disciplined enough to plan out your studies with NO supervision?