Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

Gloating

oh yah....what was i trying to do in the first place? it's youth day, and i'm lazing my day away....hahahaha, that princess Di concert was great....at least anything with andrew lloyd webber is great.

haiz, realised how much i missed the technicolour coat....seriously, after a's or prelims at least, i'm heading out to HMV to order miself a hugh collection of musicals.and no one will stop me from swishing that credit card that i earned so hard for.

oh man, after reading von's blog made me feel sad....well, i guess when you when you complain abt little things, there are other big things to look after, such that yuor little whines and complaines aren't important anymore.

i so want to learn how to sing, like seriously.....all of a sudden impulse..

oh yah! i realised professional ballerinas are really muscular, an extract of swan lake make me realise that.....the tendons were like showing. some part of it feel queasy, but most of it was awe.
(why didn't i want to attend ballet? oh yes, i remembered, i was busy practising the piano)

so yah.....right now, it's 2:20pm and i'm still not very motivated to start on chem. like hell man.....it's youth day~ it's supposed to be a day for US. haiz.....sometimes we have to stop being selfish and look at what we can do, rather what people can do for us.

it sounds very noble, and it's harder to do than to say, but really....consider the fact that we all have our things to do. maybe, we should all focus on what we really want before actually doing it in the first place.

take for example - i love to cook, bake, make a mess of the kitchen. and that came from my love for food and nutrition, a subject i took for O's. so it's like a cycle, love for food leads to love for nutrition leads to love for cooking leads to love to experiment lead to love for food again.

i was thinking about it yesterday, that we all love to do the things we want. and life is like a cycle that never stops revolving around you - whether you reject that fate is entirely up to your courage to want to break free. however, if you take the first step and start doing something you like, then you've already made the cogwheels of another cycle of fate to turn. but this time, this is a cycle that you enjoy to be in.

like a bond in a covalent molecule. when one part of your life is lacking in something, and someone else can give you what you need, automatically, the static force of attraction binds you to this person. unless a force more power can overcome than bond.....this molecule exists for as long as time exists. and we are the examples of that bond.

so why not take mother nature's example....start building your life on the bonds that make you happy.

you must learn how to accept love and learn how to be willing to give love back. if you keep accepting, you'll be like a vacuum, or a blackhole, forever sucking but never filling up inside. if you keep giving and never accepting, then you'll be a like a free radical. forever substituiting and invading healthy cells. but when one is willing to give and the other accept that gift. then perhaps an equillibrium is reachd and peace is restored.

why can't we all follow this principal. when times are hard, there are moments when we tell ourselves to make a decision that you know will affect your perspective. these are what many authors call "cross-road" moments. so if you try for once to step out of your comfort zone and take on the challenge of giving first, accepting later, or if you know you need help, accepting first, and giving later...then perhaps you'll find what you need and sometimes if you're lucky, what you've always wanted.