i'm made up my mind long ago that i will want to visit the p and tell her the stuff that she needs to hear. we students no longer are able to put up with the crappy system and the stupid endless programmes that they force on us.

to be sure, it'll not be some complain session but rather a feed-back session, a grey line toes the in between.

and today what mr d. said was totally unnecessary. i understand where that is coming from, and yes i sympathize...but no, i refuse for that person to be protected like that. everything happens for a reason, and there's a reason why people are treating you this way. maybe it's about damn time you come and ask us why you're being treated like that. we're still your friends to some extent and we'll tell you waht you need to know.

officer? maybe you're not there yet....pity - that you have the qualities of something better yet you choose to live the way you do. the forces of nature does not bend your way.

and seriously, xj is no where near racist, go think about jeremy or even soon long....and the comments that xj made are targeted at this character....if your thick-skull of yours left room for possibilities, didn't you consider the fact that we have a side to our story as well? oh yes, i forgot, your brain grew down south so there wasn't much to start with. oh! that bloody well explains why you could teach......sorry for being so cold and not understanding towards your insecurities....i can't help it, you are the one SETTING the example, so this devoted an obediant student is FOLLOWING your example. that's what you wanted right? for your students to -adore-you...look it adoration has many meanings in many contexts....maybe you didn't know

yeah....simple to say. maybe my insecurities these days have made me look at things the negative way. and last sat has just made it worse....seriously, don't bother to talk to claudia wong if she has no more than 8hrs of sleep. seriously, i have no idea what that woman will say and no matter how much she tries to be civilised (and believe me, it takes alot), she can't help feeling irritated. but don't be offended, she's not irritated at you, she's irritated at the fact that she has to come back to school on sat. if she has any chance of avoiding seeing the school and smelling the canteen on weekends, she'll take it.

anyway....i should stop feeling lousy and get a grip already. there seems to have so much to do and i can't seem to get anything done.

who says you can't get into something and not get emotionally attached? after 2 years with 222, the reality of departing them is drawing very near. and it's very very difficult to accept that if i were to leave, i have to leave behind all my friends. maybe that's why i'm kinda in a "do they still like me mood"

true, i hate to lose them....along with my band mates especially guan yu, shannon, marcus, irene, michelle, nicolette and darren as well as the forever funny-guy alvin.

it hurts so much that the paranoia comes over. when they don't wave back, i take it a little too personally. but it's really okay.....there are other reasons too.

don't worry so much claudia. positive focus will bring you there....not positive thought. you have to focus on the beautiful things in life or you'll miss out eveything that is blatantly in front of you. there is no turning back after that moment's been lost.

鼓起勇气，"they're all playing tricks in your mind" - someone close told me that once. maybe its time i win the game of cat and mouse.