first things first....need to thank some people today for making today a much better one....firstly, nat - for the pats-on-the-back...=)there's been riffs lately, but i just wanted to tell you that i'm really sorry for what i've said to you...knowing how it'll affect you but i still said it at the heat of the moment....sorry babe >.<" thanks for making this day so much better...can't thank you enough.

xinyi, words can't really express, but you know as virgos, we do better by actions...hahaha *BIG HUGZ*...thanks for everything....really everything

van and kirthika....thanks for that extra bonus at ya kun's with all that laughter....you gals will really make me miss moments like these.

nicholette....i'm glad it helped you....thanks for your wonderful sms this morning, it was a really really really pleasant surprise...i'll be here for you no matter what =)

darren.....thanks for hearing my rants...it's not easy to hear a girl rant but thanks for the advice...i'll find myself again - i promise

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when beryl said,"i think you're burning out, like huishan"ah....reality struck

yeah yeah, i've been avoiding the fact that i've burnt out long ago, even before block test....it explains everything inside out....

so now, there's really nothing else to say and do but to just relax....like read bits and pieces and laugh or marvel at the stuff on the blog...hahaha, it's been a long time since i've been there.

anyway, these days, i'm in the mood for band dinners and helping people....like maybe because i haven't been back to band for a while, the feeling is like displaced (cholrine and bromine) and the eagerness to study kinda spurs me on to try and help those geog-ers and econ-ers in need....not that i'm perfect or very good (no where near aminah's standards) but at least i'm sure i know the concepts...haiz, hope there can be of use.

besides that....after letting it out (by crying) today, there's this strange new feeling...i can feel it coming, and i know recovery is within sight. the doc's right....我需要放得下.

many times, alot of things get in your way, like ASP...and you can't really have the freedom to do what you want. maybe it's better to just tide out this few days more and see what happens. meanwhile claudia wong is going on a 2 week vacation...(yes, vonk, don't faint)

prelims is very important to me because i'm applying to manchester soon.....and although it's hard to let it go now, but really......there'll be no deadlines to this break...

although you may think that i'm being irrational by crying and "seeking pity" or even over-reacting.....then to the contrary, yes i am. i'm being irrationally and over-reacting, but what it is not, is seeking pity.

i don't need your pity that right now i'm not being myself. everyone has different tolerance levels....my limit is here....any further and things will break apart.sometimes there is no point in trying to understand why people react to situations in a certain manner in which you find inconceivable.

true.....i need to let it out or i'll fill like a bucket too full of milk.....and i'm grateful that people who care about me understand that fact....it really meant alot today from all the sincere gestures of concern from nat, beryl and xinyi....love them to pieces...

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today mr lim's lecture gave me a direction...first, his cartoon looked pretty lame, but then it started to make sense....

i agree with you....thanks for making me see the light again....