finally, tiwari has a blog......hahaha

okay this is my 15min break from maths before i get into it AGAIN.....just 1hr ago i was panicking over a senseless careless mistake (sampling, so you know)...goodness

these days the tension in my brain is like really high. "have i studied this before?" "can i remember this when i get there?"

like 2 weeks before there's totally no drive to study you know? like really.....i was basically hyper-stoning (just to borrow a word from jia hao) at my math in the morning and dazing at geog in the afternoon

thanks to yvonne, if not i don't think i can make it thru blocks

haiz......these days everyone seems to have their problems, from beryl (thanks ah ritesh)...i guess when people around you aren't feeling well it affects inside bah...like sometimes, it's very hard for me to like sympathetize some stuff...for one i don't have a relationship before.not even coming close to one. it's like sometimes, the best advice i can give is based on logic, and sometimes when it comes to relationships, logic doesn't really work.

i'm always open to a listening ear....haiz, but everytime i listen to other people's problems, it's very helpless like you can't do anything to help them - but to just listen and provide some sort of comfort.

it's difficult to be sad, because when you feel sad, there's nothing to make it go away - when you're sad, people around you also feel sad.....it's easier to be happy(easier said than done)

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i was watching oprah the other day, and there's this psychologist who studies happiness...maybe what he said echoed my fears and cleared some fog on that area. maybe i want to believe what he's telling me.

he said that happiness is always in our heart, we all need to find a way to connect to that place in our hearts. when we believe that we're worth it, and that happiness can last...then it will.

come to think of it, there's no loss in believing that happiness will last when you let it.

i live in singapore and although i want to explore the world, this will always be home. although i don't live in a big house, but i'm very comfortable....although i don't have aircon, i appreciate the fact that i have a fan.

when you start to be grateful for all thet things around you, you'll find that there's actually alot to be thankful for - a close-knitted community of friends, a caring family, materials things that make you comfortable, a piano to play on, a dog to look forward to, a home.

what is there not to be thankful? i mean seriously - it's only want you start to desire, and gotten what you've desired, that you'll realise that what you desired will not fulfil you. and so you keep desiring, keep going after paper shadows....it's not worth it. i think we should all look forward and plan to what makes you glow from the inside.

not what gives you pleasure. it's a pleasure to make friends, to have a big house, to have a ferrari...but it'll only make you happy when you have friends to lean on, a house that have memories and laughter and a car that can bring the family together that counts. other than that....is secondary.

i guess it's all i have to say - because deep down inside, i wish that all my friends can be as happy as i am right now. we're not perfect (i'm far from it) but at least we try to be, and every trail makes us a better person right?

be strong!