today is a really really really really warm day....like the moment i climbed up the never-ending hill to ms lam's house my back was like all wet.....not surprisingly, PLUS i had a stomach ache.that's how mother nature tortures people slowly.

anyway, on my way to piano lesson i thought about something great, but i can't really remember it now, just slipped my mind.

oh yah! i remember le...!

while i was walking to the mrt station passing through the tunnel, it came across to me that it's kinda pathetic to some people to have to wake up 6:30am on a school holiday (what holiday?) to reach somerset at 8am and then walk to ms lam's house and hopefully reach there by 8:20am.

plus, i wasn't really in the mood for lessons because i really want to get started on climatology and start reading all the WONDERFUL *strained smile* climatology notes....but hey, here i am in the mrt train (by then i'm on my way down south) dragging what seems like a ton worth of music beansprouts to have a morning lessons. excuse me, i was the first student of the day.(shangyi was second)

WHAT IF, what if i could just sms my teacher this morning to postpone my lessons....hah!that would be in my dreams because my teacher doesn't own a hp (anymore). and to cancel would be to call her and i would have to hear her rather disappointed voice.

yes. that's when it hit me....we all know and are very familar how technology can bring us to a very convenient spot where an apology need not be made face-to-face.

yes, indeed....when friends quarrel, we all think that by smsing our friends an apology, things will be solved. because we don't really have the guts to ask them out and really really explain ourselves out. people normally take the easy way out. like how i would very much want to cancel the lesson, but i can't.

that's probably why people these days can't accept the fact that things don't always go your way. it sucks....and believe it, they do. and people don't believe that things can turn out a certain way...but they do, and they cannot explain it.

i'm really grateful for my mum who instilled (i mean, nag) this sense of observant attitude.because like a book i once read, the signs or symptoms are all around you, it's a matter whether you want to open an eye to it or not. once you start observing things around you, many unexaplainable matters because very clear, and things that have happened without reason now becomes very logical.

so when one day technology becomes unavailable to you, (like how ms aminah does not own a hp)you're lost. boundaries are drawn....and we no longer have the courage to step over that boundary. (i had to make 7 trips to the staff room in 4 days just so tt i can verify the econs rep feedback session)

no wonder we get frustrated easily, miscommunicated easily and disappoint easily.

we also assume things easily.....causing more misunderstandings

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if we don't have a hp, or a dopod or internet-can you survive?

not all would say the same.

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it's really special for people to give unconditionally. i cannot do it...i admit

but today i just realise what an ass i've been, to scold people for being irresponsible and uncommitted and selfish but i don't practice what i preach (many don't practise what they preach)

like shangyi had just won a $30 kinokuniya voucher...i know ritesh would salivate at this. but that's not the point....so seow ling and i were looking at comics, and shangyi just said ,"你们要买， 我有voucher..."and so i jumped the chance and bought 2 comic books (costing abt 20bucks together). however, it's really bad to spend other people's prize money...so i told her i'd hold on to the books, if she has anything to buy and it's over the limit, i'll return the books.

haiz......i still feel bad because she has bought them already...and i left early because i had to go to yvonne's house...so i smsed to tell shangyi that it's okay, but she's really really nice and she bought the books for me le....now i feel bad >.<"

what i feel worse is that i promised yvonne that i'll go to her house at 1pm, latest 2pm, but we ate and the time was already 1:45pm by the time everything ended....maybe being a little selfish i wanted to spend more time with shangyi since i hardly spend time with her....and i really wanted to give her her bday present.(HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!)

anyway....it's really great to have these kinda friends, people who give things unconditionally and don't ask anything in return...that's why it always hurts me to see them being used or bullied by other people....

shangyi: next time got people bully you must tell me k? i'll help you the best i can....=)thanks loads for the comic books! *hugz*

i'm really fortunate to have so many great friends and people around me....although it's hurting my pocket to buy presents for so many friends....but to see their smile and wonderful smses of thanks just warms my heart....besides, if i didn't want to do it, i wouldn've said no...if i had endless amount of cash, i would've bought greater gifts to thank them for all the great times and their friendship....

words of love and gratitude can never be said enough......so

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIP....I LOVE YOU ALL!