Claud

An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart.

She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art.

For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up,

in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.

i feel disconnected these days....like whatever i say ring very echo in my ears

i thought i like some things, but when you really do them, it seems like it's not really what you like. weird huh?

it's a syndrome of not knowing what you want and what you need i think, like sometimes we think that earning more wealth can buy us happiness but it isn't always the case.

i know i'd love shopping and watching movies any other day....if only i was feeling better

the dreams are more vivid and frequent these days....am i finally brave enough to contend my fears?

amidst all the hustle of the things that has to be done, there is a shadow in the background....hoping to leap out into the light - but something's holding it back

i don't know what is holding me back?it could be my insecurities, like how i don't want to things to go "wrong" and how it's very difficult for me to commit into a -ship 'cause i'm afraid of losing.
and i thought i had it under control.....some snippets of conversation from people are making me see things in a different light.

maybe i don't understand why people don't understand......conversely speaking, what is it that they understand and i don't. i want to just study.....i really have to get out of here.

i'm not very good at holding on to relationships and everytime i try, it's getting harder. and harder.

today my cousin say i'm a boring person, yah...my 9 year old cousin says i'm boring.

maybe i really am boring.....like how people can laugh around each other but perhaps i just pull people's mood down.

it makes me very restless....like what have i become? am i only just about ideas, books and knowledge? come to think of it - that's basically my composition...i have nothing else to offer. maybe they deserve someone else to make them feel better about everyday