these days things are back to almost normal i guess....with the report sent and everyone having enough sleep.

why is it so hard? almost like running upstream, everyone uptight about things around them...it makes people working around them very very very tired.

relax lah.......a brain works better when it's relaxed and calm, conveniently, i think better 5 mins i doze off.

hahahaha.......anyway, i had a really weird dream or rather dreams.

it's so real.....and it's very very uncertain if it's true anot.

dreams are really good avenues by which we release tension. when you think about something too much, your subconcious takes over and makes you dream, so that you won't go mad thinking about. sometimes, things that we don't think about, or think we don't think about are the very things which concerns us most.

we keep it deep within us hoping it will dissolve away. yeah, true, it will for a moment, but not forever. then slowly, it can eat us inside out and then when it's all over, you'll be left hollow with nothing inside.

that's where patience is test - we make ourselves numb from the pain's cause.

interesting isn't it?

if everyone were to tell each other what their dreams are about, i bet there'll be war or peace, because we don't tell each other enough how we feel inside. hoping things will be better.....

i agree, that holding things back is good. but not too long...if the problem doesn't go away, it doesn't and perhaps when the time's right, we should do something about it.

these are said with some form of fear inside, because personally, i never know how much patience i've tested...or will ever know how many people are talking behind my back.

then maybe my only excuse is that i do what i think is necessary....maybe other don't see it that way.

it's perfectly alright....as long as we understand. whether you accept or reject, it's your personal choice. but understanding comes first.

no pair of husband and wife accept the things each other do. but they understand and given time, they accept. - at least that's what my mum told me. seriously, till today, i marvel at how my mum tolerate the many horrible things my dad has done.

there's no reason to be uptight about things. really, there isn't....if we stand back a little from all the crap or shit and watch the world go by, we can then save ourselves from the chaos and make things better.

same universal law...a force must give way to a greater force acting upon it. if we don't give way one way or another, then it's very difficult not to break.

everyone has their breaking point and some moments in life, we feel that we're reaching so close to it. the only way from not breaking it, is to step back and keep yourself a distance away from that breaking point. perhaps only then, can we believe that "we can do it".....no point telling yourself you can do it when you're so near - because you'll never believe what you say to yourself.