it's not like i wanna praise myself or something....and it's also not like i want to know alot of people or something.

but ask yourself, yjc's really puny, with the j2 cohort even more so, so is it natural that everyone just happens to know everyone else?

anyway...really really proud of the percussion section: the whole lot of them have NO experience in playing in a band at all, and yet they strived so hard to keep up with the band. and it's not like the situation was ideal or something. afterall, i feel kinda proud of lionel when he actually "scolded" and "encouraged" and motivated his section members to keep on trying.

it's just so nice, to see everyone work together.

yet - on the other hand, it's time that i pay more attention to my playing.

yet - everything else seems to be a mess, we're not even actively planning for our concert. and today is the 7/2/07. the concert? 18/5/07. i'm sure you can do the math?

or is it just one of my kanchiong disease again?

in the mean time, it's really very hard to confirm everything, well it seems that we have to wait for the people AFTER 1st three months to settle everything? dunno what the management doing arh.

sick of all the disorganized stuff....and i'm sick of myself being so calculative in every way. calculative in my work, calculative in planning....

it's just that no one likes to waste time.

but ms luo said some kind of time have to be wasted...nothing runs on the dot.

sadly, i don't really agree? why?

how would you feel when your plane doesn't take-off on time? it takes off 1hr later, then business plans would be ruined.

how would you feel when the mrt estimation says 1min, but in actual fact, it took 6min?

how would you feel when you promise someone, but later have to break yuor promise?

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some people criticise me - i push people too hard. and then some people point out that with abit more time, and me being less "kanchiong", we can do a better job.

they say, but opportunity after opportunity, results are never show.

it's just that if we're going for a revolution, we have to walk the talk right?

no point saying that we're going to change the world while you're eating peanuts....people don't exactly believe you.

but there is a difference when you say, we're going to change the world while standing on a podium with all the spotlight on you. ah - on that's what i call change.

how convincing can our change be?

we're just going to scratch the surface? or we're going to a full-fledged twist....in my opinion (however humble we may be), we need to trust others that they do their job. like how we trust that food will always be available, and teachers always knows best. we have to start doing our own jobs, understand what is your job before doing everything else.

like some things aren't really necessary although it's very nice and tempting to do them....

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should band adopt the M-form type of management?

it seems that it's not working, there's no inter-connection between the conductor and the s.c, the s.c and then s.l....and the s.l to the members.

some sections are good, and i'm not saying the s.ls are irresponsible....perhaps i'm too slow to have thought about this at all that they've began to relax on their roles.

or from the beginning, they don't share what i see.

we must change our management design....seriously

we're using the U-form management, where each and every part is departmentalised. like q.ms, blah blah blah....

should we use a matrix design instead?

where there's one project leader. ie Mr A is in-charge of the concert, then under him/her, have 15 other people solely to run the project. so in this unit, there is 5 person in every group, to run their individual tasks. but this whole unit runs as one.

overall, we adopt the M-form design, where the leader, in this case a president can oversee the other projects. ie

1) Concert: Mr. A just reports to president on the updates on the concert.

2) Wed Expresso: S.c consults conductor and then reports to president on the update.

3) CVD: S.c consults conductor and teacher i/c and then repport to president on the update.

4) treasurer and asst. treasurer: report to vice-president on the montly accounts.

5) q.m and asst. q.m report to vice-president on updates.

6) secretary report to president.

etc.etc.

that way, each individual unit, from the "concert" unit to the "secretary unit" is coordinated under the p and vp. then information can be coordinated and compile and re-distribute it to the other members.

so very much it runs like a barter trade. like imports coming in and then exports going out the other way simultaneously. so information is passed down to the p/vp, and then passed down to the individual units and then passed back up again. so there's this continuous flow of information.

but right now, it seems that everyone is relying on guan yu alone and it's really taxing for her. eg. i don't really need to tell her much about tutor stuff and she doesn't relaly need to tell me about attendance stuff.

so for the wed expresso, q.m i/c for the logistics and tell the president waht they're planning to do, and the s.c can go talk to the external parties involving to explain to them the nature of the song. then all the president needs to do is just exchange the information.

is that like better?

but the disadvantage of such a system, is that COORDINATION is necessary....in fact, it is CRUCIAL....if not essential. perhaps our band lacks in such coordination because the rest of us are self-absorbed with our own ideas and distrust that we're doing everything by ourself.

don't let history repeat.

seriously, the problem here is delegation.

take for example, one should first assign responsibility, then grant the proper authority and then create a sort of accoundability to the one being delegated.

there must be a reward at the end of the entire process or els no one would want to take the risk.

there's not one perfect way in organising a group of people. and i'm not blaming anyone here....it's just an observation and i hope to be of some use.

just felt like a failure these days until i say how determined the percussion people were....then it struck me that maybe, just maybe there's still some difference i can make.

with mr sim concentrating on our syf pieces, and the band picking up speed, there's still hope in what we're wanting to achieve.it's hard to balance the delicated ball between friendship and colleague, because on one hand - we all have different ideas and the other we admire each other for it.

don't doubt my conscience or my ability....please, don't make such judgements of me before i start doing the same of you...and i'm sure no one likes to do that. you can always give me constructive feedback (like what i'm attempting to do here) than question my alternatives on things.

because seriously, i'm not in a pretty mood these days because of the stress that j2 baggages. and i'm not going to say something that will hurt.

so i'm leaving it here and going to sleep thinking - what would it be, if the sense of urgency can be instilled. would we sacrifice pleasure for production? many would not make the sarcrifice....