Damn....i can't seem to stop whatever that is coming out of my mouth these days....should get to the root of the problem already.

is being complacent a humanly characteristic? that's why i told you ppl not to praise too much....i dunno how to handle flattery and appraisal i think. not that it's too late to learn~

"i don't think anyone in this school is busier than me"

after what other people said about me juggling my time and all...it sort of brought a "right" that i can say about the above statement.

especially when someone elses whines about their busy schedules...when apparently, that person has no cca commitments, no extra activities - only sch work and projects to contend with. somehow there's this anger inside me. Why are they leading a more carefree life than me?

somehow because i ask too the impossible for myself. that was what i thought gave me the right to say something like this. but later when i think about it, actually, there are people that lead more stressful lifestyles than me....and this makes me in the position similar to the person above.

i hope they don't mind me when i say that because it really just came on the top of my head. it's like, i wanted so much to be justified for working hard you know~because like what i told guanyu, i've never worked so hard in my life before. (and like i what i told krist and amelda, it's kinda nice to be working)

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真忙, 假忙, 盲忙?

Why are we so busy everyday? what is with the term busy which immediately associates with hardwork, dilligence, seriousness in one's work and every adjective that you can think off.

i'm not pin-pointing here...just listened to the t.v that day and this short clip on the show cross-fire came up.

some people are truly busy because they run businesses, manage large companies blah blah and during weekdays their hp just rings non-stop because of the rapidly changing world. then there are some people who really are busy, but not because they have alot to do. but rather they push everything aside and do what fancies them first. so deadlines after deadlines come creeping up to them and before they know it, they're rushing to finish off their work. and then there's another type who runs off doing other people's work other than their own and sadly for them, add to their own piling load of work.

so they are 真忙, 假忙 or 盲忙?

and perhaps i'm a slave to such an image depicted by the work - busy. it's just that i need the approval and assurance from others that what i'm doing, is justified~

"i'm busy"

its not that i don't feel bad for compromising some things for another.

aren't we all busy with our lives? be it with school, external events or what-nots. but it's still not an excuse, not to have time for yourself yah?

it makes us all stronger to understand that we can push our limits. but really, how far can one push oneself before breaking down?

if this is my limit, then it would be sad, because there are greater things to come.

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it's not a secret...we're all but human, get 8 hrs of sleep rather than do your hmwk.

personally, i see no point in rushing out homework (or any other things) last minute. and i also see no point going to school tired because you hadn't have enough sleep - some may not notice, but aural learning is very effective but it can only be done when one is wide awake.

there's no point to not understand, and then spend so much time on your hmwk and then not understand and then sleep late etc etc....

it's a vicious cycle that saps energy out of your mind and body.

really.......the only reason that keeps me going is my 8hr of sleep.

don't feel miserable when you can't have 8hrs everyday, at least 6hrs would do you good. try it someday - fight the urge to watch tv blah blah....you'll find that you can achieve so much more than just being able to do yuro hmwk.

when you understand and you know, the rest just comes naturally - at least that's what i'm convincing myself to believe.

SLEEP MORE PEOPLE!