it seems that time is a matter these days....and perhaps it's stressing us all out.

to know that time isn't always there waiting for us.

i don't know about being a leader...and events these days brought me back on to the ground on being a leader....

firstly, back from the cambodia trip: those sharing sessions just got into me...to put everything bluntly nd straight-forwardly, like how things are familar. feeback did mention thati can be too demanding and over-powering at times...okay, most of the time. and it bothers some people because they can feel like they're suffocating and tired out just hearing me speak.

indeed......people did complained that i talk too much during meetings...did it truly?

if that amount of "try", to not talk too much is not enough, that tell me, how do i manage that delicate balance of being able to voice what is important to me, and being a loud-hailer?

i don't have all the answers, i was hoping you could advise me.

nat, you were right-you were tired.....

secondly, it didn't mattered to me if you're a senior, or someone older than me....it just doesn't register in my brain if you act childishly. (i'm not talking about marcus....and his pessimism thing)that's why it seems like i'm always finding ways to climb over a teacher's head.

yes....i admit...there are times where such boundaries are crossed

and no, i'm not implying that i don't respect teachers whose boundaries i've crossed.

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please, don't take me the wrong way.....

there's a fine line between friendliness and intimacy

there's a fine line between pride and arrogance

there's a fine line self-confidence and egotistical

there's a fine line between eccentricity and madness

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many times when my brain does not function well because i dont' conciously control it, i cross those lines

we all don't like people to talk bad about us....so presently, i've taken into this idea that if i accept what others do, others will accet me too. sadly it's not the case....because sometimes our actions can still irk others.

true....you either clique or you don't. so since i'm not really all out to make best friends everywhere, i guess touching a few nerves won't hurt anything? but some part inside, still want others to have an okay relationship....like"claudia ah....she okay one lah" kinda relationship rather than "claudia ah....erh....okay lah" kinda relationship.

especially when people that you respect, say things that are negative.

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it has always been a desire to please....a simple nod of the head, pat on the shoulder or a "great job" always warms it up...

so cold......the feeling inside. i dunno why-the sight of nat, xinyi, van and pop always warms me up in the morning...being with guanyu always feels like a good idea and meeting dylon, shangyi and evelyn as well as darling yvonne always gives me assurance~

and there are some unqiue people in my heart ---------kristelle, weisheng (for some strange reason) phyllis, saras, msluo, mslim,delia and gisella.....they're in places where words cannot be used to describe....

people,people,people..........

we have different conciousness about different things.

don't get it?

often wonder how someone can do something that you always thought that you can? personally, it's because they can see it and we can't. like they have a different view on something that we thought to be impossible.

slowly but surely if we open our eyes and ears to how they do things, manage people and maintain relationships, there are much to learn indeed....

easier said than done~

the incident on how we deal ***** *** is alreadya sign on how we cannot accept. if we can accept, then some things have to be compromised....the paradox of my argument i guess.

We are all sick: the minor ones may just have a flu, spreading their little bugs around to others. others have cancer, eating them from inside out. or some have spanish flu, their symptoms and influence spread far and wide.

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are you tired of hating someone?

then yet again.....are you tired of being talked about?

for me, i certainly am.......