Hmm....i still rememberd being called a busy body once in my primary school. and till, today, i didn't realise that i still am that very same girl faced with issues like this.

we skipped pe and then there are many unanswered questions revolving this whole thing....so as usual, i told my mum about it because she has to sign something anyway. she wanted to know both sides of the situation so she went to look for the teacher.

oh wellz.....then perhaps messages weren't passed down correctly and in lieu of all this....people closest to me were kinda hurt.

then i sort of wondered, although kris and xinyi thanked my mum and me for speaking up, that would it have been better if i just minded my own business and kept my thoughts to myself?

i don't know, it seems that the cause of all this things is me. and that if i didn't tell xinyi that i was not going, would she have went and not land herself into all this problem?

on the other hand, we wouldn't have realised the seriousness of our actions when we face the consequences. - we were too naive......much too naive to comprehend things we still cannot understand.

the last thing here is not about how i feel, but rather how i made others feel. the power of the individual cannot be underestimated.

it's much better to stick to my own business......so much better....

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what is the line between helping someone speak up and the line of own interest?

how to put it?

like if you see something that you're not comfortable with, what would you have done? speak up to the person regarding the issue? or let it slide by.

i've seen too many of latter in my course of my life, that perhaps i thought it's the time that i did something different. to make myself useful to my friends.

i also cannot answer where the words that my friends speak now, matter so much to me. like somedays when you sit around and talk about life's difficulties, somehow you wish you can do something to make their life easier. and to add that i'm a practical person, perhaps that's what i do.

why? why can't i just keep my mouth shut and let things be the way they are. is it that i think too much of the bigger issues that small things don't seem to add up as much?

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what leader? i'm not even fit to call myself that....

so what i make a bunch of people listen to me, i don't have such privilege when the closest one to me is hurt.

what makes us all human? the compassion for another human being? we all talk about compassion right? like what dylon said, the things we learnt and realised in cambodia cannot be used in singapore context....really.....i'm a busy body.

so it comes back to the question of friendship? like who is your friend and who is not?

in times like this, some people choose to take the backrow seat and not participate-they are very safe. another type would take the front row seat and comment among themselves....the last and the least number will actually participate. most of the time, those who get criticised the most are the actors. and those who crticise the most is the front row because they can see everything.

it just hurts me to see you in a difficult position....i'm not yet mature to handle such things bah- then yet again, i don't how to make you feel better because it's just not me to say lovey-dovey things.

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we're very much all like the earth - modeled after it.

the more stable the core, the more you can withstand external radiation from the earth because as long as the core is active, we will not suffer the damage from the sun's radiation.

so what is the use of a thicker outer crust, when what is most important is the core.

in other words, why cover yuorself with so many materialistic things what don't matter, when you have so much more inside you?

pehaps, we should aim to strengthen our core rather than focusing on convering it. in times of crisis, perhaps, the thing we rely most is our inner core. otherwise, we'll be left barren and deserted of life(-form).

don't say things you cannot promise, and walk the talk. i'm sure i don't do it all the time, but at least, try to make it "most of the time"

we're all sick of empty promises of "i'm going to do about it" - now i'm trying to change that...but it seems that like every other change, personal sacrifices have to be made.