today, i feel kinda flattered...and it's kinda scary because i'm afraid how complacent i'll become...SO PEOPLE! stop praising me okay?????

today mr syn asked ismail and me to take part in the econs essay competition...somehow, it feels like a priviledge...yet, there is so much work to be done (reseach) and writing a 3000-5000 word essay AND a summary for my essay....weird huh?

seems like it's really true - be careful what you wish for and it struck me like this is somehow like a h3 paper...hahaha, even the requirements are the same can? but the good thing is that there's an incentive of not only gaining knowledge, but also the money as well :P

but either way...it's an oppportunity and perhaps i may not be able to win, but at least i've tried and that's probably more important.

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i'm not an incredible woman.....really, i'm only human.....

it may seem very admirable that i'm juggling so many things......but i believe everyone can do the same thing as well.

in the past, i looked up to my school's scholars and wondered what is in them that i don't have....now that i have a goal....some how there's this drive to push yourself harder no matter the odds you now?

it's not how you do it, but i think rather why you are doing it, that is important....because with no car, any amout of fuel (eating right, sleeping right) is usless....we're only but living day to day

i'm sure most of us have big dreams on what we want to do.....the only courageous thing you can do for yourself is to try hard enough to make that dream come true. then the only problem or doubt is, if you've chosen the right dream that makes you the happiest.

there's only so much of stress we can all take....there's only so much disappointment which we can forget. so why not?

Why not make that stress that we already have, and those disappointments in the past into something useful? My blunt point here is: stress about something which you can look forward next time. Instead of stressing on WHY you can't have it that way, or this way etc....

i don't wish to undermine people as often as i do...but sometimes, there are somethings which i don't mean waht i say.

however, the way i see things now, some people are really immature in their thinking(or conversely speaking, i may be a fool saying this). they don't see why things have to be done in a particular way...or don't see the importance of learning a particular concept. like relating facts into reality...some see it as some sort of additional burden.

yeah, in some way it's the truth...but it's afterall a very simplistic and warped way of looking at the situation.

don't moan over why the school gives us exams, moan over why you cannot cope. is it that you're not focusing on the important stuff? or what?

i don't know how everyone works, but at least - my personal stand is that as long as you have a direction to work towards to......and you know that the direction you're taking is meaningful (not just endless chase of paper qualifications), the other "small" factors such as not being able to hand up work on time, not being able to recall facts for a test etc...will magically disappear.

they don't have something special in them. they just had the mind over matter to do what they believe was most important to them - other things secondary.

Other things secondary - who said dreams didn't come with sacrifice?

who mentioned that success didn't come with sacrifice, and yet conversely speaking, who said pleasure didn't come with sacrifice.

which sacrifice is worth your broken heart, which sacrifice can be redeemed in the future? -you decide