CLAUD

Monday, January 22, 2007

Editing

last friday was kinda emotional very everyone i guess....the first time i take the proper band consisting of both j1s and j2s....achieving something in the warm-ups...doing something...

but all was not to be...because we all knew that this didn't come from the sky...afterall, it's the hard work and sarcrifice of many, that we can get this far.

really, as what ms luo said bah...new instruments just used to come year after year, but this year... it's enough. some high power had decided our fate that this luxury will come no more.]

what is that i've done?

seriously, somehow, i feel that i don't deserve any credit for the job i've done in band. i'm nothing better compared to last year and most certainly, the things which i've done has screwed up somehow.

we're all learning aren't we?

and here i thought i had it all.

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I'm not good at putting things across like weisheng, kirs and guanyu...but i still feel - and

i've never been as proud of any school as i've been before. and the yj winds constituites most of this pride instilled in me

it's not the we're the best cca cause we win lotsa stuff kinda pride, but rather...we have lotsa stuff cuz we work for it kinda pride.

i'm seriously proud of everyone in this band...from our youngest member, jialiang...to the seriousness of the QMs, marcus and chunhowe....to the very dedicated s.ls weisheng and shannon who never fail to give comments for improvement. and then there's sarala and guanyu who's always there for the band...the determination of khairul in money matters and even nat...who has been supporting the band behind curtains...

yet, how can i thank them enough for making this band such a great place to be in?

i don't know if i should feel this - but who am i now? do i really deserve what i have now?

part of me feels otherwise....yet, part of me wants to try.

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like what kris said, we care about the concert more than the overseas exchange trip...i share the same sentiments...i don't know how to phrase how these feelings are...things like that don't come out easily...maybe i've kept them locked up for too long a time...

we may be 20 years old, but we're still young in coping with the burden of both a concert and an exchange.

there's this buzz now, of working harder for band....to write better programs (however horrible my english is) and to choreograph the whole concert so as it is a success.

maybe there's a will, there's a way.

-ms luo, don't feel bad about letting us down because in actual fact, you've not...we've so much to thank you for the contributions you've made in band.

if anyone who've let anyone down, it's me. It's been selfish and undiscerning of me to act in such a way when you had high hopes. I promise, that this time, things will be different.......pehaps i'm still not ready and immature, but i'll try.....

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